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[thinanimous]

Thanks to all who replied to my previous update :). I went to barcelona for a week the day after and in the meantime things have really turned around for me thankfully! I still want to lose weight but gonna do it the healthy way (kind of forgot that option even existed!). I have never lost weight the healthy way (first time I went straight into an

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[philippa_future]

your tumblr still really worries me....

[thinanimous]

hey Pip thank you for caring about me, really. i can only say that i truly feel good about what i am doing. i am not undereating, not overexerising. i did start weighing myself and counting calories and am not too proud of that, but at the same time i AM proud for being able to keep things under control now. i don't have the same destructive habits nor thoughts i used to have, i think ive come too far for that now. i am losing weight, but its slowly. and instead of berating myself and loathing myself i am getting better and better each day with loving and accepting myself and my body. im far from perfect but i feel i am doing the right thing :)

hows it with you babe? didnt know you were still on here x

[philippa_future]

that's okay :) I think it's the photos more than anything that worry me! They're all super toned goddesses - but still so so thin. But I trust that you're on the straight & narrow and that you'll be okay :) things are actually pretty good for me. I'm still on LJ out of habit more than anything. I'm on a very slow journey away from calorie counting & weighing myself...but there are so many other things I've achieved so I'm okay with that :) bingeing, purging & restricting and a thing of the past..and eating clean & healthy is my now! I have tonnes of food allergies & seem to have developed an intolerance to lactose as well..so it's taking me a long time to figure out my diet & get it right - but I'm definitely on the way there. I'm also a bit of a workout fanatic..but it just makes me feel so great. And I've discovered vinyasa yoga which I LOVE. Still need to lose my hot yoga virginity..just a bit scared to go to my first one on my own! I'm also back in canada studying after a horrid depressive episode made me come home in November..