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thinanimous Oct 28, 2009 20:22

Anddddd now photobucket decided it would be a good moment to call it quits. So the rest will have to wait some other time!

I felt fat today and bloated and I am on my last pill but I HAVE to weigh myself tomorrow...

Writer's Block: So funny I forgot to laugh

thinanimous Oct 23, 2009 16:13

corny joke, bad joke, writer's block

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thinanimous Oct 16, 2009 14:02

I can't fight this battle anymore. I don't want to be sick anymore. I feel so good and healthy and sane. And now, because I linger so much towards the ed again, I can finally for the first time feel what a difference has been made in my life by going through treatment and stick with it. And I dont WANT to give thatup. I am so scared. It is already ( Read more... )

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thinanimous Oct 15, 2009 11:27

WHY CAN'T I GET RID OF THIS STOOPID DISORDER ( Read more... )

Goodbye, my friend.

thinanimous Dec 21, 2008 19:05

Tomorrow is D-day. Or at least, I hope. I sincerely hope tomorrow will later be known as the day I started treatment and successfully recovered.

I have spent the entire day today in bed with Bart relaxing and watching movies and doing a Desperate Housewives marathon, but since he is screaming at the television right now (football) I thought I'd ( Read more... )

recovery

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thinanimous Dec 11, 2008 11:21

Never mind. I am too stressed to eat and keep it down and do gruelling (sp?) workouts. The thought of it alone freaks me out already. For now I'd rather eat a bit here and there and throw it back up and stay in. I know that breaking this cycle, if only for one day, is the hardest part and after that I'd be back on track in no time but I just can't ( Read more... )

stress, anxiety, exercise, school, purging, eating

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thinanimous Dec 09, 2008 11:12

Maybe I should rephrase that.. The body is worth it. The behaviours aren't. Before, I really couldn't care less. Now, though, I have this very strong sense of not wanting to 'live' my life like this. This is not life, this is merely survival.

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thinanimous Dec 08, 2008 14:47

i say
fuck it
all
hard

i am so done. let's get fat and move on with life.

Dramadramadrama

thinanimous Dec 03, 2008 12:36

Group Monday was very hard and draining. I couldn't control my tears, part of me thinks it had to do with the weekend (E). I was annoyed that I had to cry but also a little relieved. My emotions are kept savely at the bottom somewhere, and most of the time I am not even sure I have feelings/emotions left. Which is scary. So yeah, I couldn't quite ( Read more... )

ip, tooth, clinic, bart, treatment

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thinanimous Oct 19, 2008 08:41

I love you guys so much. Thanks. Thank you for being there for me. Still feeling really lost but things must get better. They have to. Bart and my parents were so sweet yesterday. They were able to comfort me a little, as were you. I can't promise anything for the rest of the week but at least for today I am following my schedule. X