it's been a rough few days ( Read more... )

i'm getting so unbelievably pissed at myself. i swore that today i'd fast. and it didn't happen. at all. i was doing so well, i wasn't even hungry, but i came home and pretty much out of boredom decided that i could have a piece of a cookie. and the piece i took was REALLY small, it wouldn't have hurt at all if i wasn't eating anything else. but ( Read more... )

today was a disaster and a half...

val: i<3 her dearly. really. i do. she's one of my best friends, but she just needs to shut up sometimes. i was attempting to fast (doing a damn good job too...) and she's sitting there trying to drill it into me that i need to eat. today we ditched the 2nd half of classes cuz we were both so fucked up from ( Read more... )

ahhh i was doing so well with fasting, i managed to get through my friends pigging out at lunch and tyring to get me to eat, i managed to go to the mall watch my friend eat AGAIN, watched her eat a cookie when all i wanted was the chocolate (ugh it nearly killed me.) then watched her buy cheesecake. shes skinny. VERY skinny. but she gets all ( Read more... )

its funny how i have a boyfriend whose absolutely perfect, who would do anything for me at any time if i said the word, but i can't make myself fall in love with him. he's everything that i've always said i wanted in a guy, but now that i have it, i want someone else ( Read more... )

ahhhh!! larry's coming over in an hour or so, and i feel like my room still looks like shit ( Read more... )

alrighty, new journal, this one for none of my friends to see because every time i mention food/diets/weight i get slapped, and its not cool ( Read more... )