what? livejournal ( Read more... )

i exist lately as if i am the only one, completely and utterly in my head. i don't notice anything or anyone, and i don't notice that they notice me and worry ( Read more... )

back at beloit.
i just want to leave.

a small note of carelessness hanging over my head, i pull the car into drive. we are forty five minutes out of here, westward, homebound. i am driving slowly, taking in the moon's fullness and the feeling of being the only car on the freeway. i am ashamed of my mistakes, and angry at those who prompted them, but really it is only myself, and i am ( Read more... )

a direct hit to the senses
you're
d  i s  c o n  n e c  t  e  d

grow the fuck up, you sound like you're five years old. stop pretending, and stop talking yourself up. start being a little more self-confident, awkwardness is unflattering. stop throwing your own life away and actually do something. take a long look at yourself, is this who you really ( Read more... )

i am thinking about my trip. half of me wants to drop everything and go right now. but think i will be going next summer and next fall. i am so
tonight i will sit out on my porch and write in the dark and smoke cigarettes. i will try hard not to think about myself, i'm getting sick of trying so hard to figure out things that i guess will just not ( Read more... )

i realize i lack so much more than i thought.

YES!!!!

new livejournal. same name. got rid of all high school shit. maybe college shit is more exciting.