I'm a failure

My
life
is
worthless

I am ready to curl up and die... and it doesn't even sound like a bad idea right now...

Oh wow... I really am horrible when it comes to updating. The past few days have been fine, I guess. My best friend Dena a few of my other good friends came home from school a few days ago and I got to spend all night Friday and Saturday with them. Lucky for me, we only did dinner Saturday night, we went to Potbellies? or some sandwhich place ( Read more... )

I think I have a plan. I leave for camp on the 12th of June now (not the 9th like I had thought)... so I have a few extra days. I've lost about 5 pounds in the past 6 days... not too bad, not great... but progress. I've been working out at least once a day, usually twice. I'm taking in about 500-700 cals. so... buring more calories than I've ( Read more... )

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WHY is this so difficult! Why can't I live my life like any normal human being-- act this way or eat this without gaining weight... I am a horribly fat slob and can't seem to get going in the right direction. I hate myself and I hate the way I look. Beautiful and attractive are two words that I haven't felt that I resemble since maybe... MAYBE I ( Read more... )

Today was the first day I've been able to get to the gym, they had messed up my membership since I've been away at school and whatnot... I realized how much of a pain the gym here is... A. it's expensive as hell (price I pay to lose weight)... and at school the gym is open 24-7, here it's from 7-9... 10 on a good day. I loved being able to go run ( Read more... )

This is the first of hopefully many entries as I continue my journey towards finally reaching my goals of being thin and beautiful. I am a student at Indiana University and just got home for the summer today. Under the watchful eyes of my parents is going to pressure me to do better than I have ever done living on my own at school. I have ( Read more... )