so. its christmas. i got a cell phone, an mp3 player, and a new stereo. and i didnt expect any of it...weird. hrm..im in an odd mood. everything seems like its too good for me...like im not good enough for anything. even the food i ate. i dunno - that seems really fucked up. i cant explain it. soooo...we're going to youth and goverment, but in ( Read more... )

i dunno what to say really. things happened. im tired. i went to marble slab w/chris the other day. it was fun. im glad we're friends again. i didnt like it when he wasnt at all a part of my life. but i threw a stick at him and ACCIDENTALLY hit him in the face and i feel bad about it. i talked to christina today too. im gonna go roll w/her in a ( Read more... )

just in case you didnt read my subject, this is courtney christine tholstrup. i am farting uncontrollably and im drunk. we will we will rock you. man fuck miranda....i like my jewelry even if she doesnt. i love her though. i pay my dues i've served the sentence but i've committed no crime. shit i love queen. roni's staying the night and im talking ( Read more... )

im talking to nick. i think hes still having trouble. i dunno. i feel bad that theres nothing i can do that will be good for both of us. whatever. i will act oblivious until he tells me, because he'll end up telling me, and it'll make him feel better to see me normal...but i know it wont be for a long time. i am so pissed off that i cant go to the ( Read more... )

gosh i cant wait to get out of here. baytown, texas, life, all of it. im so tired of everything in general. i hurt right now. all my muscles are really sore...they'll be worse tomorrow from dance. me and chris broke up. i really have nothing to say. i just feel like i need to write. but i cant so um...nevermind. sometimes dont you just want to die?

its been a long time. things suck like you would never believe...where to start ( Read more... )

i wish benji cared about me. i dont talk to him anymore. it makes me really sad because we used to talk every single day no matter what. i miss him. i was gonna go play halo with nick tonight, but i came w/hil instead. im having fun though, so its all good. chris is mad at me. i went to dance tonight, and hannah is GONE. she went back to the ( Read more... )

chris sobray is talking to me. weird. its good though-i missed having him as a friend. i want to watch kill bill 2. but i dont think we're going to. courtney and nick are on his bed. we just made s'mores. tim is walking around. lacey just pantsed andrew. orange juice is good. i miss cat. she is to me, as susie is to ilyana in 'like being killed' by ( Read more... )

i was with nick and his endless, oblivious wrath today for like 8 hours. It was lots of fun, but it never stopped hurting. i love spending time with him, but i always know that there's somewhere else he'd rather be, or someone else he'd rather be with. and im just in the way. we had fun today though...and he always talks about 'when he goes away to ( Read more... )

i think i ask myself the same question at least 18 times a day. 'WHY DO I HAVE EXPECTATIONS?!' im failing history as of right now, and i have 2 days to fix that, but im about to have another zero for another essay im not going to write. fuxor. things are good with chris. w00t. hes such a sweetie. acl fest was such a blast...omg i dont even know how ( Read more... )