i just took thespark.com's personality test for the second time. it told me i'm a polititian... dear god... oi. bah. what does it know?

uhg.....

i just got back from my uncles birthday party. rrr... i don't quite know how i feel about being with my family. mabey i'm just jumping to conclusions, but they don't seem to like me very much. I sat in the corner for the night excepting dinner and when we (cousins jon and jen and me and semi evil jen, more on her later) went downstairs to watch ( Read more... )

I watched 'house of spirits' last night on bravo. it was.. good, but weird. a bunch of my IB friends read the book for their respective english classes. I probably wouldn't have liked it as much if i had read the book, the movie is never as good as the book. I really like bravo, it has a lot of really good movies, the movies tend to have a lot of ( Read more... )

I talked to my art teacher today. found out it's absolutely fine for me to do my self-portrait at home, which is good since it wouldn't have gotten done otherwise. of course i left the paper at school. which sucks. alot. but in other news, it's spring!! things are melting, birds are singing, i actually walked home with no scarf, hat, or mittens, ( Read more... )

Allright day, i was ignored by most except the one who's been ignoring me lately so it's all good. I have no idea what to do for this self portrait thing (Art class)...... rrrrrg.... my teacher won't ket me take it home yet for it to be "meaningfull" that's what'll have to happen. I can't do that sort of thing with people looking over my sholder. ( Read more... )

I got my period this morning, and as much as that sucks I now know what probably caused the moody over-sensitivity of last week. I'm not usually so pessimistic, and there's still some work to do with the whole Liz thing, but i don't feel so much like crap anymore. yay. I woke up really nice today. I put two pink blankets on it last week, plus the ( Read more... )

oh today sucked.. woke up to a room with no clean underwear except a pink thong, no bra what-so-ever, and nither contacts nor glasses. uhg. then, got to school, complained to liz about the bralessness of everything and she called me saggy, which i am not and have never been accused of before. i told her my story and when she said she had noticed ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being alone.

I really wish i didn't feel so utterly alone all the time. mabey if Dad was still here it'd be different.. well, probably not. I just don't feel conected to anyone right now, and i don't like it. I want to be needed, I want to be told secrets, I want someone to care if i'm feeling down. I have nothing to tell, but i still wan't to be listened to. I ( Read more... )