Dear god I am SO not cut out for this…

[this2shall_pass]

I am a disciplined girl, right?  I understand when its important to do what I’m told, and I do it, right?

No, no I really don’t.   Or rather, I cant force myself to.  Not when I don’t give a shit about what I’m doing.  I guess that’s comforting in some ways, because I don’t like doing homework, but I can easily force myself to do it anyways.  So

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[maillewelder]

ok, i'll be honest and say i just skimmed this because i need to run down and get laundry before someone removes mine from the washer, but do you ever just wish that they still had apprenticeship programs and we could just like, work with engineers for four or five years and then become one and learn all our shit that way instead of having to go through the bullshit of university? i do. or even like, do a year of gen ed at uni and then do a 3-5 year apprenticeship as an engineer. i'm sure most of the stuff that will actually be practical to know we'll end up learning on the job anyway. fuck.

[this2shall_pass]

ya kno, that would be amazing. It makes so much sense. Going to a university for a few years to get basics is probably good, but a lot of times i feel like everything i'm learning, i will never use in the real world.. I'd much rather learn it in a practical environment anyways, makes things seem so much more useful.

[maillewelder]

upon a more thourough reading of your post, i agree that you should be with someone who supports your life goals and dream and such. people change, plans change, lives diverge, it happens. you know? and if you give up everything to make other people happy, eventually you'll wake up and kick yourself, and ask yourself how you got so miserable. i mean, not that i think you'll do that, that's taking it to the extreme, but if the guy you're with doesn't support your goals and dreams (or your goals and dreams simply aren't compatible with his) then... i don't know, you gotta pick which is more important i guess and decide how much you're willing to compromise.

also, imho you should def do the co-op if it's gonna be the first chance to really experience work in your field.

[this2shall_pass]

thats pretty much exactly what i worry about happening.. waking up and kicking myself wondering what i did with my life and why. thanks for commenting.. its good to see that i'm not crazy and other people think the same way

and about the co-op.. im thinkin im going to do it :)