i havent updated in a while, so i will, because its 1:30, im in love with a girl who doesnt want me then any thing other then a friend, and distant one at that... and everything just seems to have blown up in my face and i never wanted to be born in the first place, did i ask for this, NO ( Read more... )

aaaah more crazy shit...

1st- my grandpa knows.. my grandma told him...
2nd- im at Rachaels, getting ready to leave, we stand up and hug and kiss... IN WALKS HER MOTHER! this is the day after Rachael denied we were actully dating! oh my Jesus Shit it was INTENSE it was sooo awkward i wanted to DIE!!!

Merry Fucking Christmas!!

AAAAAAAAH i came out to my grandma today (its only 10pm... maybe before the nights over my grandpa will know too.... ) i didnt mean to, i just said(yellled) Im Gay. ahh life is scary... but yeah/// oit was okay, she told me she loves me yadda yadda then i went to Rachaels, and found out her mother knows we are dating ( my grandparents still ( Read more... )

aaah finals. yuck

k so this was funny and i told it to francis moon about abortion

"you might not have a penis, but you dont have a vagina and will NEVER give birth" <---- yeah i know HOT ( Read more... )

i love Rachael very much and we are going to be together for a long time ( Read more... )

i am really PMS-y and i dont like it!

i got kicked out of my math class, and i dotn know what to do about the 2nd semister credit i wont be getting.

i have to babysit AGAIN! and i am fucking mad and i hate my family and i tha ipnvpanvpnaphetphapovn vBLAH

soooo i should be working on my paper, but i got sidetracted ... im SCREWED.... hmmm im really happy though, i really this someone(ha like you dont know who it is).....(its Rachael ( Read more... )

last night, went down to rachaels church to help decorate for a show there, thought it was gonna take an hour..... but 3 hours later we were still there! oh well.... rachael, chris and i got to play on a cherry picker! and i was a fluffer... a treee fluffer that is ( Read more... )

im falling, hard, for someone... damnit ( Read more... )

wow.. its already december.. crazy

well i understand (so far) whats going on in math! and thats makes me happy... i can finally pay attention!

got my hair cut... love it, i like short hair wayyyy more then long hair.

and someone said i looked like wyonna ryder which is awesome because she is beautiful!