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About 4 hours ago I was considerably drunk, at El Myr for the second time today with Rachel. She and Daniel just broke up for good. She's down about it. I'm down about being alive in the mental/emotional state that I'm in. Both down. We had a good talk, I really missed her - however, I'm annoyed that I began drinking so early today, because had I ( Read more... ) -
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I'm doing fine now I suppose if it matters.
So far, this year I have: Moved into another house show place (The Cat Cave), acquired a job AND quit, made new friends through that job, wow I'm too lazy to continue this post. -
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Currently sitting on a slightly sunken red sofa in my best friend's room. In front of me on a cluttered and disorganized coffee table is a water bottle full of vodka,(which is revolting) and a pile of stale Cheez-its that I keep picking at. The night has burned itself out and all that remains are my red coals of insomnia, a computer screen ( Read more... ) -
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I've been feeling really down lately, finding it hard to get up before 2 or 3 in the afternoon, feeling the same fear I've been feeling for months. Fear of the future, or actually, fear of the prospect of no future. Everything felt more alive at some point, and sometimes I wish I could just rewind back to the way I was last summer, but I feel like ( Read more... ) -
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I was wrong when I said alcohol couldn't take away love. Alcohol made me feel dead. I am now 3 weeks sober, because I'm afraid I will lose all feeling whatsoever if I continue to drink. Every day was a blur, but a slow blur. Distorted - filming the movie I tried to call my life through a dirty lens. Hazy. Dead. -
Jordan
I left for you, I hope you understand that. Every second that clicked by was my life, our relationship leaking through my fingers. I left for you. I loved you too much to let them keep me away from you any longer. I don't think you'll ever understand, even though you say you do - all I could do every day and every night was sit with my headphones ( Read more... ) -
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I am feeling sort of down lately. Oh well. Visit home in March. Be there or be square. I need to smoke. That's all. -
SOME MORE TIGHT PICTURES
Today was interesting. I was alone in the student cafe early this morning like at 6, writing Jordan a 20 page letter at the table, and this girl named Lilly from Montana Academy came up and sat down next to me and was just like "Hi, Bob." We ended up talking for almost a full hour about lots of things, from music to our hometowns to our problems. ( Read more... )
