i'll be in mobile in 6 days.  i'm glad me & derik made up.  i didn't want to break up with him at all.  especially not right before i go away for 2 weeks.  i'm looking forward to seeing everybody, especially angela's kids.  i just hope the weather's ok!

i was riding my bike home from the alleycat tonight and i saw 2 deer, a buck & a doe just chillin out in somebody's front yard when i was like 2 blocks from my house.  when i rode by i looked up cause i heard clippetyclops and there they were... the female walked away swiftly, and the male stared me down to make sure i wasn't gonna start any shit ( Read more... )

so derik called me today and told me that his mom said "if you wanna go to mobile with your girlfriend, i'll get you a ticket for christmas."

i was so excited i almost cried.  i've wanted SO BADLY for him to go to mobile with me.  i just never expected it to happen.

so what did i do?  i said "i think you'd be bored.  maybe it'd be better if you went ( Read more... )

last night i had another one of my dreams where i go back to high school. there i was, in faith academy, sitting in coach skoda's bible class, 7th period... sheena was two desks behind me, we were in room 17. kassy was a few rows over from me to the left (i was right by the chalkboard). we were all making jokes that by the time we graduate high ( Read more... )

it's cold.  38 degrees and dropping rapidly.  it's raining.  i've cleaned my room and i'm waiting for derik to call.  chances are i will not see him tonight.  the weather channel says it should feel like 14 degrees tonight because of the humidity and wind chill.  that makes me want to cry.  ::curls up in a ball::

i just don't have enough clothes to ( Read more... )

i've found permanence.  security.  love.  comfort.  joy.

i've found feelings i didn't even know existed in real life.  i've found the man of my dreams.  i've found all that is good for me on this earth.  i'm literally walking on clouds, my insides are tied in knots and slithering all around, my mouth won't break out of this grin, and i feel pure ( Read more... )

derik gave me a new (used) bike last night!  it's yellow & black.  it's kinda hard to get on & off of it, but i'll get used to it.  it's SOOOOO much easier on my knees.  i love him so much!  i didn't even know what a difference what kind of bike you're riding can make.  he said the bike's worth a whole lot of money (like... thousands), but he's had ( Read more... )

I am thinking it's a sign ( Read more... )

i'm so effing happy.  i feel like i don't deserve to feel this good.  i feel like i don't deserve for him to love me this much.  but then i think about all the guys i went through, all the bullshit i forgave, all the times i was used before this... and then i think maybe it's about damn time i met someone who isn't a total dickwad.  we've both been ( Read more... )

This Is My Life, RatedLife:

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