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i went from absolute boredom to worried sick in a matter of hours. the stupid part is, i shouldn't be worried about him. i've always said, "why worry? where is it gonna get you besides an early grave?" so... once again, i should stop being a dumbass and follow my own advice. but therein lies the problem. I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT. and ( Read more... )

i'm updating my livejournal. why? who knows. nothing of any importance whatsoever has happened to me today. i woke up, cleaned some stuff, ate, watched tv, got online, ate again, watched a movie, and now i'm updating my livejournal. days like this are a total and complete waste and they make me want to go back home, where on days like this i ( Read more... )

i just found out that someone who i once thought of as a friend has completely ruined my best friend's life. or is at least trying pretty damn hard. after all the times that he was with me when i thought i was pregnant or went through breakups or just felt plain shitty... i can't be there for him. i'm here in the middle of nowhere while he's ( Read more... )

i've been haunted by seth cohen all day. i saw a poster of him when i was with my mom in shopko. when i was putting a movie in the dvd player, i had to take out the dvd with him on it... tonight and last night my brother and i have not gone through with our nightly ritual of watching at least 3 episodes of the o.c. IT'S KILLING ME! i'm so ( Read more... )

i never thought i'd watch that movie, but my parents told me to pick out a movie to watch and that was the only one we had in the house that i hadn't seen, so we saw it and it was SO good. it really makes you think about your actions before you act. she screwed her whole life up and lost her one real friend because she wanted to be "cool." the ( Read more... )

shanna and her friends michael & michael came to pick me up from my house, and we went driving around. we didn't even stay at the actual party long. we spent most of the time at michael's house making plans. i'm SO glad i went! i still really want to go home though. there were a lot of cool kids at the party though. maybe i'll meet more ( Read more... )

I HAVE A FRIEND HERE! i really think i do. i may even have plans for THIS WEEKEND! do you know what that means?!? my life may not be so morbidly depressing in just a matter of days! i met her through myspace (c'mon, what else am i supposed to do, talk to complete strangers in real life??) and she seems really freakin cool. like... seriously ( Read more... )

i can not stop biting my nails. not even my nails, really. i just pick at my cuticles until my fingertips are just a bloody mess. it's disgusting. i can't even face myself in the mirror anymore. what kind of monster does this sort of thing? i suck at life. my nails look ridiculous.

so, it turns out... me & clint are getting married in five years! i'll be 25, he'll be 20. it'll be adorable. he's the coolest kid i've ever known in my whole entire life.  and in other news, i love spunji! i don't know why i just now remembered how awesome judi & mary are. i got a message from them saying they would be in the area soon, but it ( Read more... )