big surprise....ken turned out to be a giant douche. it was a fun two months though. we both started catching feelings and that was the end of that. plus he lives three hours away and hates the town I live in because he grew up here and got into some shit. he said he didn't see a future with us because I have kids with someone else. which I guess I ( Read more... )

hopefully itll be a while before anyone actually reads this. i dont know what the fuck is going on with me lately. i dont know if im losing my mind...if im driving myself crazy...if the people around me are making me crazy....i dont know if theres something in the fucking water out here. but something isn't right. I think that doing the same thing ( Read more... )

I am drowning being your anchor. This is my life right now.my daughter had hip surgery today. I was by myself. He has been away working in st. Louis since the beginning of march. This is me silently dying and giving up. I am gone. I no longer exist. I am not here. Only a tiny piece of me...the surviver is here. The rest is put to sleep in a coma to ( Read more... )

you should have let me go. making me stay by telling me you were gonna kill yourself was selfish. cause now i am even more stuck than i was before. you went right back to not caring and not having it in you to listen to me. cause you're not afraid of losing me. you're too worried about all the materialistic things that rule your life. you arent ( Read more... )

it's weird after 23 years realising that I really dont like my mom as a person. of course i love her shes my mother. but this visit was not pleasant. she doesnt respect that this is my house or my kids. everytime i say no to something about caelie she does it anyway. caelie had such an attitude while my mom was here because she sees that my mom ( Read more... )

i think i'm in a bad mood ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to say here, i am allover the place with this,,,, it seems like you have empathy for me so i think you can sort of understand why i said the things i did.because these past few days i keep re-reading our conversation and everytime i learn something new. but tonight i learned that you have a good heart.and im sorry for the mean ( Read more... )

i dont know anything

help me!!!

i love my boyfriend more than anyone in the whole entire world. =)