i kinda wished i lived on campus now.

i'm just so fucking worried i'm not going to make friends. i see others doing it so quickly. and i've yet to do anything.

speed up time, speed up.

recently, why i don't know, my hair just began to shed. at times more than others, but it just began to shed. i've grown my hair out since november, and i still intend to do so, but i want it LONG. and this shedding is completely obstructing my plans ( Read more... )

i think this apartment thing is bugging me out. i have no place for myself. i'm always in a room with SOMEONE. i mean, i don't want to offend my family but sometimes i just wish that they acted reasonable and unselfish, stopped buying houses that they can't afford, stop being unemployed, stop being resilient, and just behaved and planned to live ( Read more... )

Turning eighteen for me was supposed to be this new chapter of enlightenment, but it just seems to be a chapter of shit ( Read more... )

i've been in the dumps lately. it's like i can't enjoy anything. and i don't know why. i just feel so much pressure, but i'm not sure from what.

it sounds weird, but i think i need school right now so that way i would've seen people all the time. i think being around people is what kept me on my feet.

talking with lena about music and life while listening to classic alternative rock with the windows down and sunroof up with the wind blowing in our faces making a mess of our hair:

this is a staple of my teenagehood.

well, my mom's over it now. and she's just glad that i'm safe ( Read more... )

i got into my first major car crash tonight ( Read more... )

i wish i had a stable home to resort to in times of need.

staying over my dads house for the night.

have work in the morning. at target. ugh.

i think may is going to be hell for me.

plans for undergrad college ( Read more... )