it doesn't matter where i am
in my head i'm somewhere else

i can't believe it's december
omg someone give me a push so i don't back out

four more weeks and it's HTX.
so happy and scared.

dear sarah,
so ready to meet houston. everyone here is hateful and miserable and i am converting their negative energy to positive $avings and thinspiration.
fuck the haters,
jess

i was a pin up
now i'm pathetic
nothing is worth anything

isn't getting any easier, you're still gone and no one compares
i want to sleep until i can see you again

it often makes no sense, in fact i never understand these things i feel

motivated
still sleeping too late
i'll have a black eye tomorrow

fade into you
i think it's strange you never knew

it won't be numbed, no matter how i try

maybe not the best idea scheduling my first appointment with a therapist on my dead father's birthday