So I've come to the point where I really have no feelings about her but I still can't break this train of thought. What happened to me will always matter to me because I'll never get some closure, this apathy is depressing. I still feel like a piece of trash.

I'm going on vacation in a couple of weeks and Dale is going to be visiting. Hopefully I'll go somewhere, do something different. I think that I've been a little too reclusive lately even against my own wishes. I need an adventure of sorts, but I'm not really sure what. I hate sitting here not knowing what to type next ( Read more... )

I wish I had something legit to complain about, but I don't. I remember when I knew what I was going to be doing, when I was content not knowing the harder things to calculate in life, and how it was all going to happen. I had no delusions as to any of it, just that some things would happen to me; sure as death. I've always been prepared for the ( Read more... )

Well I guess it's going to be quieter around here... I just about booted everybody who ever posted. I don't need to read that stuff anyway. Half the time I'm wondering if it's me and I know it isn't. I guess it's all just a waste of time anyway ( Read more... )

Boring few weeks, boring next few weeks ( Read more... )

this is nice, it doesn't talk back lol ( Read more... )

I don't think I ever said I got out of debt. Well I did. It feels good but I know it isn't going to last long. I did some things and hopefully it won't anyway. But now I don't want to do it at all, still it'll be better in the end but it's not fulfilling ( Read more... )

What a boring weekend. I wish I had some money to spend on a vacation or something... well I do but I don't have anybody to do it with anyway lol. Still I think I'm going to try to drag a couple of people to the zoo, haven't been to one since I was a kid so that'll be fun ( Read more... )

so I lost two hours at work last week and it seemed like it wouldn't end. every day felt like 2 hours where added. After Todd did the schedule a couple of the guys got pretty angry with each other but whatever... it really didn't matter ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since I last wrote here. I wonder if people still check this, I doubt it lol. I miss this place, I used to be able to write whatever bothered me here, however I pleased ( Read more... )