Last night I dreamed I took an hpt and it was positive, which, interestingly enough (to me and only me, I know), is the first time that's ever happened. Always before they have been negs or inconclusive. Anyway, the reason behind this is because of these four silly things: My lower back has been hurting, since about two weeks ago. My gag reflex ( Read more... )

The only blog I read any more is Niobe's. Well, I eagerly kept up with Antigone's until she left it. Which was a bit sad. Anyway, I just stopped in on several of the old haunts I haven't read in.....at least a year. Awhile.

Certainly Not Cool Enough, who's real name I can't even remember, and her Beloved are officially childless. It's depressing. ( Read more... )

Okay.

#1 - I hate that you broke up with me for her. And I hate that you didn't even think it was necessary to tell me. One day you just didn't show up and you stopped answering your telephone. I don't really think about it much anymore, but when it does come up I get really, really pissed off. Maybe I'm just overly jealous or something. I don't ( Read more... )

We're not having a birthday party tomorrow. I'm not having a birthday party tomorrow.

Pontius' plane will arrive in the morning just as I am leaving the apartment for work. Yeah, I have to work. Maybe this is a good thing, but I mostly feel like something, some time, is being stolen from me.

And then as soon as I get home I am going to have to be ( Read more... )

Niobe's son was born alive and kicking (and over nine pounds) in the wee hours of January 8th. His pseudonym is Cole. And now that he's here I feel completely numb to the entire situation.

As it turned out, I was wrong. Niobe's due date was actually a couple days ago, Tuesday, I think. The baby didn't come, and the plan was to induce later this (Thursday) morning. But she updated around midnight to say she was leaving for the hospital....."slight change of plans." I'm terrified for her. Oh, God, please bring that child out alive, ( Read more... )

JtoThe10: is that the said guy of suckage
Closer To Regret: lol, The most recent one, yes.
JtoThe10: the most recent?  how many
Closer To Regret: Um, just the two...well three if you count Bret, lol.
JtoThe10: ew

Niobe's baby is due on the 12th. I want her boy to come out screaming so bad, more than you'd expect possible for a woman in New England I don't actually know at all. But I'm scared.

It feels selfish, but I'm scared.

And it's Christmastime tomorrow. sigh.

I finally asked someone how old their baby was.

It was at work, a couple at one of my tables with their little boy, blonde curls, asking for tea in his sippy cup. (So southern!)

The woman smiled up at me. "He'll be two in..."

She paused, I froze. Please don't say January, please don't say January.

"...a few weeks."

I inserted the requisite coos as ( Read more... )

I miss him. I miss him so much.