tonight is the night i see it all for it really is ( Read more... )

this is my life....and i don't want it

i wish i could be perfect for him. i feel like i keep messing up and i'm not sure what i'm doing wrong. he's the only one that makes me this unsure of myself and what i do. he says i stress him out. but i don't know exactly what i do. i talk to him like.. once a day. and usually for not a long time. what can i do in 10 minutes to stress him out? ( Read more... )

so wow. it's been a loonngg time since i've posted. sorry for the neglect. i just don't have a computer and the time of day ( Read more... )

you hurt me. you keep playing with me. i don't know what you want and you're never there to ask. i can't believe that i actually thought i had a chance. you're not any better than anyone else was.

it's times like this when i wonder why i even get up.

so i spent a good part of last night sobbing in the bathroom. then i took a really hot long shower. it didn't help much.

on the other hand, went and saw the exorcism of emily rose. it wasn't as good as i was hoping but it wasn't extremely bad. beats white noise. definatly.

i don't want to keep doing this.

i swore this was going to be a good year. but damnit it's not going how i wanted. i keep fucking up and i keep missing. everything is falling about and now i don't have anything to do. i'm pass cutting i don't want to go back. i don't want to go to drugs. i would lose a lot. god, i'm so lost.

i'm staying at my sister's for a few days. it's been an upsetting few days. if you need to reach me call 832 381 0355