this is so painful!!.whiskers has barely been gone a day and already i'm going out of my mind with sadness. i can't imagine going on much longer like this. i've been crying for 4 days straggling and i don't feel like it's gonna get any easier. tonight is the first time i'm sleeping in my bed since we put him down and i'm still ( Read more... )

how do I love yet hate receiving so many texts/myspace msgs from my crush in the past few days? I'm weird. I don't want to like this dude anymore--just cos I know it's not gonna go anywhere....but then outta nowhere he'll start talking to me more often and spark my interest again ( Read more... )

I hate killing time before going out. I have a little over an hour before I can even start getting ready...and I can almost gaurantee that I'll be ready long before the girls even pick me up. I always get too excited for a night out on the town that I count down the minutes until I get to go. so lame ( Read more... )

-jeremy never gave a shit about you ( Read more... )

shit. it's so late and I don't feel tired. maybe it's the iced tea that I drank at 1am, or the fact that I started watching the first season of "grey's anatomy" and got all sucked into it, or maybe it's all the shit running thru my mind. either way, the sun's gonna be up soon and I need to get my busy little ass off to sleep ( Read more... )

god I feel miserable. why is this happening to me? what did I do to deserve this? I totally beieved in you, and worst of all I trusted you so much. I thought you were the one friend I could rely on for so many things. why did you do this to me? is this something you do, go around making girls fall for you so you have someone to pass the time with ( Read more... )

that's it. I'm done. I admit defeat; took me a while to get here, I didn't want to be here. but the veil's been lifted and honestly, my heart can't take anymore. I can't take these pety things that just cut me to the core. I can't take wondering what's going on, I can't help but feel betrayed and I can't trust anymore ( Read more... )

so many trivial things. so many meaningful words. so many wonderful memories. too many lies. too much drama. too much shit-talking. I don't know what to do anymore....and worst of all I don't know who to believe. if I could just turn off my phone, curl up in bed, and sleep for a month, then I would. I hate receiving text messages telling me who not ( Read more... )

my god. I really wanna lose weight. I'm tired of being an ugly fat little beast. I'm tired of having to wear my spanks under my clothes to flatten out my rolls. I just want to be comfortable and happy in my own skin ( Read more... )

so things have been either great or really shitty, no in betweens ( Read more... )