It has just felt way to long since I have wrote in this. I guess I should be writing in the one over my bed since I thinkit has been a year since a touched it.. But anyway this is my life right now in a snap shot ( Read more... )

I like chicken..

yea and working

yea and every so often seeing marc

yea and my cat hates me now

ummm... yea.....

So things are still going well with marc and I we still haven't fought in a while (knock on wood) he hopes to get a new appartment down here with his friend fleut. I have to help him find one.. shouldn't be to bad.. I got another job. I am now working at Abercrombie & fitch. in freeport at nights. and also at Starbuck in topsham. in the mornings.. ( Read more... )

Well it has been a long time since I have written anything here. I am home from school. I guess you could say everything is going fine. I need one more job for the summer because Abercrombie and Fitch just isn't going to cut it for one job. Marc has moved down to bath to be near me. I don't know if I like the idea of him doing it for me. I would ( Read more... )

-Here I am once again
I'm torn into peices
Can't deny can't pretend
-Broken up deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cried.
-I don't cry on the outside anymore
~~Kelly Clarkson

I just don't know if I am happy anymore

I just want to scream. I just want to cry. I don't understand why having free time to myself should be such a crime. I don't know why I feel like I am always repeating myself in a fight I don't know why i want to bring that sweet soft blade to my skin I don't know why I want to be in this relationship anymore it has been so hard when I feel like I ( Read more... )

GENERAL ( Read more... )

After everything that happened yesterday I didn't expect Marc to show up. It was late and he had told me he was going to be there earlier. when it got late and I started to get worked up with everything that happened to me that day I started to think he wouldn't show up. and I blaimed it on the new I had to tell him yesterday. What surprised me was ( Read more... )

Feeling very alone

Feeling like I am going to have to deal with this alone

But that is ok, because I have had to deal with a few of the hardest times in my life, By myself. I expect to do this the same way