I'm back in the world of the living again.... woohoo(?)

[thisisnotmylj]

Well friends.... do i have any friends out there? I know it's been a very long time since i've posted on this journal. But I can only say that I have been going through a lot of difficult times. For example, about a week or two ago, the powers that be chose to take me away but as you can see, I am back. I just had some sort of seizure and my heart

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[dishapeaches]

OMG! I'm so glad you're still with us, hon. ♥hugs♥

Please, please, please take the counseling that social services has offered to you. Elliot needs her mother to be sane and healthy so she can grow up happy and healthy herself.

[thisisnotmylj]

we already agreed to take it. we'll see how it goes and if it's really bad, we'll just ask them not to come back. they come to your home once a week and talk to you and check on you and stuff. it sounds stupid but i agreed to do it because it was recommended by social services and i don't want any problems. But I don't know if I'll ever be really sane and healthy. I've just got too much going on in my head. I hope Elliot doesn't turn out anything like me. Better that she be more like her father than like me but even better that she be like neither of us. Just her own, completely different, sane and healthy person.

[love_war_snow]

<3

[thisisnotmylj]

:)

[one1below]

Maybe your tongue healed a bunch when you were in the hospital after, nonremembering.

Should've bit HIS tongue instead :)

[thisisnotmylj]

perhaps. or the blood came from elsewhere. who knows. who cares. Im glad i didnt bite a piece of my tongue off. that would be a tragedy.

[anonymous]

I cant get on my livejournal I dont know any of the passwords for them xtcisaok or Luminous_Life or xhatestodayx. I was in florida for a few months and wish I could have seen you. I have a house phone you can call it 209-295-6225. I Needed money so I put my florida hair Lic to good use and worked 50 hour weeks making ugly people pretty. at the same time im exhausted the good ol' days left me with an enlarged liver a high enzym count and tests after test after test drs appointment after drs appointment. I now sit in the foot hills of northern california where marijuana is used for medical and recreational purposes with a 25 dollar consequence if its not medical for up to an Oz. of it. You know thats never been my cup o tea but it stops me from throwing up all the time and takes care of my headaches with out having to risk my liver to tylenol

[thisisnotmylj]

My darling. Are you on facebook? Because if not, you should be. I'm in Israel. If you want to call me... here's how you do it... you can get a calling card if you don't have long distance out of the U.S. and then you dial 011-972-3-573-2550. It's my parents apartment. That's where I'm living now until I get my own place. People suck. Things suck. I'm sorry that things are so horrible for you. I miss you lots and I wish that we could hang out! How is it in California compared to Florida. Why do your parents not know where you are? Are they still in Florida? Keep in touch with me somehow. I'm usually on facebook or aim or msn messenger and my email is stomstemi@hotmail.com. So let me know what the best way to contact you is. If I have to, I will ask my mother to let me call you. I really really really want to talk to you. So yes, I hope you see this message and get back to me. Love you, darling! <3

*kisses*

[anonymous]

PS I just read ALL of the post you wrote.. what have you been tested for cause you have alot of the same symptoms im having.
_Ryan