i've gotten a new journal.

_she_sparkled

i added everyone who was previously on my friends list.

add me back, K guys?

there are apple colored leaves strewn across my lawn
and brown ones, who have turned themselves inside out for winter

..and this makes me want to put on my mittens and roll down my hill

its silent in the city of sound..
and i'm high just from thinking

come down
come down
come down

strand by strand you watch your identity change
that shade of lipstick is far too dark for your fair skin
and you know it
"just one more inch on those heels"
you say to the clerk
"i wanna be your regular tina turner"

you keep that box of love letters stashed..
where your old self used to be
where he used to be
because now youre brand new

life is funny.

and it makes me laugh.

the kind of laugh where you throw your whole head back
and you don't care if you look ridiculous

because life is just that funny

i love days when you walk outside and the cold bites at your ears
and its just the right temperature to turn your cheeks rosy red
and color the tip of your nose pink

thats today.

as for me? i'm splendid.
something inside me has changed,
i've found new joy in being me.

&youknowthatiwanttotellyoutotry
but you won't let me.

it was our lovely night filled with ghouls and goblins
and "aren't you too old for trick-or-treating?"
no,thanks.i'm just fine.

a little mermaid pillowcase and a funny dress
has never made me fall in love before.

&thankyou.

November 26th at Bogarts:
Brand New
Hot Rod Circuit
Eisley
STRAYLIGHT RUN

Who wants to go with me?

i miss being loved like that..
do you remember what it felt like?
GOD i was floating
do you ever think about it?

breathing all at once through your nose
because youre hoping your breath will cease from your mouth
until you stop kissing him
that split second of lust
and you can't hold back
electric blue lights
guitars exploding in your ears
his hands holding your hips
your hand on the back of his neck
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Elliott Smith killed himself.

devastatingly true.


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