So I'm at work and I can't get the conversation with my mother from 
this morning out of my head. She can't understand why I want to go to 
Ireland. It's just too unfathomable for her. She doesn't like me being 
so far away because 'if something were to happen, she couldn't do 
anything'. Here's the thing. What would you do? If I needed money, you ( Read more... )

Is it o.k. to use that word to describe someone you should feel the opposite about? The one person that everyone says will always be there for you, will always love you, will do anything for you. Is it o.k. to hate her? It has been over twenty four hours since she's hurt me. It wasn't that big of a deal; I'm not angry anymore. This worries me even ( Read more... )

When is it exactly that your heart simply says, "Sorry. This is it. This is all that I can take"? Everytime something in my life goes wrong, every time that someone hurts me or that I hurt myself, I can't help thinking that I'm just not strong enough for this. I cry. I smoke. I talk. It goes away after a while. Until something else happens and then ( Read more... )

I haven't spoken to her since Sat and yet, she still finds ways into ruining my life. I truly can spell HATE with six letters ( Read more... )

I hate her so much. How is it possible to hate someone that much? She picked a fucking fist fight with me tonight right in front of Lala. Tell me how I became the aggresor and got the shit for it. It was like 20 minutes ago and my blood pressure is still really high. I think I'm on the verge of a fucking stroke. Getting blamed by her and Lala about ( Read more... )

There are of course rules on how to be successful at being a woman.

1) Learn how to fake things. You'll never get anywhere if you don't. And I don't mean what you think I mean (although that will probably come in handy too). I mean learn how to fake everything!
2) Always look like you're thinking of a personal joke. Looking like you're enjoying life ( Read more... )

In talking to a friend, happened across a profound theory. How does my mind come up with this shit ( Read more... )

I think they might be right. I can't afford this. I don't have the money.

So I get back today from a super day with PB's BF and I find a letter from the temp agency saying that they over paid me over $700 last July and they want me to pay them back. First, I freak out. I don't have that kind of money to just pay back to them at a moment's notice! Then, I start doing some research (but of course it was last year and I no ( Read more... )

I do. I drink too much. Yesterday, Polo 2 and I got together at our place for beer, then A the gay dropped by for a bit. That was good. Then Polo 2's bff came by and then the two of them eventually left. There was so much laughter yday! Like so much! There's also so much drama. Heh, at least most of it is not to do with me. Then Polo 2 invited me ( Read more... )