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Lost Without You
I went to Big Bear this week and stayed in a cabin with a bunch of people. It was fun but I still thought about Jill a lot. I still really miss her and I don't think that's ever going to change. No girl seems to be able to take her place. They just seem to be distractions for the time being. I just came seem to live without her. But I have to. I ( Read more... ) -
I Want
Her back. She's the only person that I want. I'd do anything to be able to spend the rest of my life with her. But it's to late I can tell she's moved on. She doesn't call or text me. No messages on myspace. I thought I was ok. I thought I was moving on. I guess I'm just not strong enough. I wish I could find the strength to at least delete her ( Read more... ) -
Miserable At Best
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Lonely December
I still miss Jill. I've been going threw my things trying to get ready to move out and I came across things of hers that I missed last time I guess. A picture of her here and there. It just hurts still. I think it always will just cause I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her but she didn't feel the same way. I'm sure shes falling in love ( Read more... ) -
I'm Not Strong Enough
So saw Jill a few weeks ago now when she came to get her things. I typed her a letter letting her know how I feel and asking her to please give me another chance. She told me she can't. I don't understand why. But I can't keep living like this. I've never been this depressed for this long before. I just can't seem to move on. I'm not strong enough ( Read more... ) -
I May Have Your Heart But He Has Your Body
I hate this. Im right back were I was. I dont know what to do. I broke down today at work. I havent done that in a long time. I just dont understand. How can you love me if your with him? How can be sleeping with him when you still think about me time to time? Do you really love me as much as you say you do? I just wish I knew what to do. Do I stay ( Read more... ) -
Still Completely In Love With Her
Jill got her things tonight. I tried really hard to stay strong and not care about seeing her or show emotion. I dont think I was doing so well though. All my feelings for her are just as strong as they've always been. I had a ok talk with her about things. I have no idea what will come from the talk though. I feel like when shes with me she wants ( Read more... )