the semester is wrapping up. I've got a lot on my mind. One final paper. Some drawings to complete. and a final essay and a missed assignment. But more than just homework I've got other stuff on my mind. I'll be going to camp to work all summer on the 22. Other thyan that mostly is a girl that's on my mind, but in all honesty I have a few on ( Read more... )

My life has been a complete mess this entire school year. I feel confused about everything. especially girls. I don't really know how I feel about any of them anymore. The girl I thought I would marry completely changed this past year. except shes still too emotional and extremely immature. She thinks she's mature, but she's not, she's far ( Read more... )

I just got a job offer to work at Aldersgate Camp this summer. It would be 11 weeks of work strting at the end of may and throught the summer. I think I am going to accept the offer. That makes me really happy and excited. I've never had a job so this is gonna be new to actually make money instead of just recieving it.

It's amazing how much a person can change and even more amazing how your concept of reality can change. I've changed the way I view the world so much lately and I always feel like everything's about to fall apart and I feel like a horrible person but I don't believe that's truly how things are but that's how I've treated everything. I've become ( Read more... )

So last night I spent the night with Seville. I had a wonderful time. I really miss hanging out with her, she makes me feel some calm, relaxed and sfe, most of the time. I got to just talk and not feel like I was being judged and that was good. There were noisy party people there, and it was crazy, but I still enjoyed myself.
Finals...

So, yeah. it's only been like three months since I posted on here. I saw Seville friday. we went to the park and... It was almost like we were still actually involved in eachothers lifes. I want to be out of school... I want to take a long trip with some people I really care about. I want to have meaning and purpose in my life, something I seem ( Read more... )

My life has been so boring lately. Nothing has given me much joy lately, I'm hoping fall break will be a change, but mny heart need s changed not the atmosphere I'm in. Anyways, bye.
Ray

The pain I feel from the gluttony of my own heart haunts me day and night ( Read more... )

I never update anymore i feel so overwhelmed by all my homework. It's rididculous, I've forgotten how to relax, hopefully the fact that fall is extremely relaxing will change my mood. I really need to escape from myself and all my stupid habits. Can someone please save me? I want everything to be ok, but I won't let it be ok. Does anyone else ( Read more... )

So, Brooke came over to visit, I wish she could've stayed longer, but Um, I'm still glad I got to see her. I hope we get to hang out again soon.