I'm sorry.  More sorry than I could ever possibly explain to you.  I'm sorry for hurting you over and over.  I'm sorry for being a jealous bitch.  I'm sorry for them, but I was only with them because they reminded me of you.  I wanted you, and only you, but you wanted her.  If you didn't, you wouldn't have "thought" about kissing her.  ( Read more... )

So I had an extreamly scary dream last night...
for all of you who don't know Mike Beckman,
he's an ex boyfriend of mine.
We used to be really good friends [I'm not sure what happened]
and he's diabetic.
Well,
I had this dream last night that him, Nick, Brian and Jeremy came to a party I was at.
I was trying to stay away from them,
but Beckman looked ( Read more... )

I just got back from watching 23,
and now I'm pretty much going crazy.
It's 6:14 right now.
6 * 4 = 24 - 1 = 23! 
[This is from a bulliten I posted at 6:14, obviously]
I have a can of Dr. Pepper right in front of me.
Which, is 23 flavors.
And just to be stupid,
I counted the letters in my myspace name thing...
23.
Three of the lisence plates I saw on ( Read more... )

I've been in a kind of mood since late last night, and I've just been thinking about some stupid stuff.  I was filling out a survey, and it asked why my last relationship ended, and after explaining I'm a big dumb slut, I started thinking about why any of them ended... and there's really no reason.  I'm pretty much just never happy.  Either I break ( Read more... )

Why is it that I wait till after I do something,
to realise how wrong it is for me?

Don't get me wrong...
it was amazing.
I loved every second of it more than you could possibly imagine.
Everything I hoped would happen, did.

But there's nothing else now.
It was just the once.
He had no feelings behind it.
And it's going to hurt.

And how awkward is school ( Read more... )

I LOVE TYLER BACON!
He is my best friend.
EVERRR!

TyLeR BaCoN22: and trust me
TyLeR BaCoN22: i wont let u and me drift
TyLeR BaCoN22: that would kill me if we did
TyLeR BaCoN22: ur my bff
TyLeR BaCoN22: and i will never ever let us drift
Not x a x robot: DFKSDJGDFJ
:]
Not x a x robot: I love you Tyler.
TyLeR BaCoN22: i love u 2
TyLeR BaCoN22: trust me if we ( Read more... )

My mom's downstairs snorting coke.
she even told me she was going to do it.
Like, WTF!?

Couldn't she be a mother for once in hermy life?

Before I really update,
I need to ask,
how can you call a 17 year old virgin,
who's only messed around with 11 guys,
a whore...
when your best-friend's girlfriend/girlfriend's best-friend
is 15 and has had sex with 15 people?
I'm not saying thats bad,
or calling her a whore...
I'm just calling you a hipocrite.
Oh that's right,
it's cause 6 of them were your ' ( Read more... )

Hung out with my Ally Wally Thursday.
Sang 'Working on the Night Moose'
and then it was on The O.C.
We stayed at Samme's.
funnn!
This is when the whole

thing came about.

Friday we did.. nothing.
Titty and Pat came over.
Not to much fun.

Saturday went to my cousin's party.
Then went back to Samme's.
Titty Davi Pat Jake Long [The American Dragon] Lizzy ( Read more... )

What did I do last night...?
( There's really only one way to describe it... )