i eel like my whole world is falling apart. i thought things were going really good but aparently i was wrong.

let me just catch you up to speed. mine and mikes one year was on march 3, 2006. he asked me to marry him on march 19 2006. well im gonna go now. gotta do stuff.

ian carr was i guy i had know since i was 7yrs old. he was a really cool friend. he was diagnosed with cancer when he was nine. he had finally started to grow hair back. he was off some if his meds. he was told he dodnt have to wear the mask any more. i had just talked to him a few days ago he was doing so well. until last not i got a devistating ( Read more... )

there is apparently somthing really big happening to me or for me on the third of march (mine and mikes one year anneversary) or on march 11th (taste of chaos concert). Mike, larry, and seth keep reminding me of it. i really excited about it, even thought i have no idea what is going on. larry and seth are just waiting to see my reaction. i can't ( Read more... )

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i've been so depressed as of late i dont know what to do i just want to cry. there are so many thing going wrong. i love michael forever. he is the only good thing in my life right now. well i cant see im so sick ef crying and shaking for some reason i've ben shaking kinda bad lately.i love you mike for ever and always.

my dad told me mike and i cant be in my room cuz dawn doesnt want us to be. yet her daurghter dena can do anything she wants to. stays weeks at her boyfriends house. let friends fuck on out couch. i dont want to sit in that. i get blames for everything around here. no im not just saying that. if the floor arent done its my fault. yet dena can steal ( Read more... )

i went to a christmas party with michael and his family. his grandma Tommie made me a beautiful bracelet. i now have a job. i work at Tim Hortons on flushing and ballenger. we dont have skill center so i wont see anyone that goes there. mike and i were talking about if we had kids that did the same stuff we do. the first thing that came out of my ( Read more... )

i wish i would have known. all he ead to do was say somthing. i was there italk to him all the time. thats what going through my mind right now. a friend of my was having problems and i tryed to help. i gave him some of the advise a really nice friend gave to me. until 2 weeks ago when he stoped talking to me cuz he said he was tired of life and ( Read more... )

mikes grandma Tommy is having a christmas party that i am invited to. he said there is a suprise for me that day but i have no clue what it is. the only hint he will give me is thats its a suprise. it doesn't matter. i love that boy with all my heart and will forever.