1. What is the status of you and the last person you held hands with ( Read more... )

I will put down in words what I have only just been able to even start thinking about, let alone talk about. There are two directions from which I have been beat down, wear out and destroyed. One is work and the other is family ( Read more... )

And I am done, I was my hands of this... half-existence. I am no more.

the worst thing about this hell is that i have to come back

and i just can't handle the thought of having to come back here... it makes me want to kill things i shouldn't kill... or maybe i should just kill those people, they are the true enemy

And I am definitely at the point where I am thinking that the thing no one wants to think about and no one especially wants to talk about is really the only option there is.

Words starting with D tend to be ugly words... but good can come from them too. Or so one hopes.

Funny how quickly it goes from upsetting to annoying.

And I am just that much closer to saying fuck it.

At this point I am starting to feel like I shouldn't even consider going home. What's the point? I have lost my home, it has gone on without me and I don't have the humanity left in me to go chasing after it. Fuck your perfect little lives that you take for granted. I just want that place that I can be in that never changes... or at least ( Read more... )

Weird day... not sure where to start or where to finish... lets just say I have been in a bit of a nostalgic mood. Thinking of days past. People I haven't forgotten but thought I would never hear or see of again. I don't forget, not easily. You would be surprised at the number of people I think about and wondering where they are and what they ( Read more... )

I am not counting down the days but I am getting anxious to get home. I feel it in my bones. That longing to be back in the United States. Mostly I long to hold Beth. I can actually feel her in my arms, her hair on my cheek and the feel of her breath on my lips. It is hard not to day dream about her. I sleep out here only so that when I wake ( Read more... )