well, i had a good ten page rant. then it all went away. = ) i'm happy. i just bitched for an hour on this thing and it all got deleted.... suffice to say i miss all my friends, i'm alone because my family went on a week long vacation without me, i dont have a car and i live in the country right now. no friends because its a new town, and i'm ( Read more... )

well.. arent sequels fun? in this case yes, fun it was. i got a huge kick out of watching the sequel to the matrix, and so did agent smith, a few times, but to me there should have been something more than kicks. dont get me wrong now, there was love, there was fear, maybe even a little bit of hate in there somewhere, so emotions werent left out ( Read more... )

between lacking nicotine, alcohol, thc, sex, and caffeine, i could have killed someone today

its strange, but only when i have some time to sit down, think about my life, and write about it do i write about it here... which means that i only write here when i think a lot, which only happens when i feel like something needs fixing, which only happens when i feel broken. hopefully pretty soon i'll feel totally shattered. i know it sounds ( Read more... )

Well. yeah. lol. fuckit. life lately has been a bitch and a half. i tried to get out of the marine DEP, but it just wasnt happenin. the Sgt made me feel like a prick, so i was perfectly ready to walk in, tell him i was leaving, and tell him that if he had a problem with it, he could take it and himself streight to hell. unfortunately he just ( Read more... )

since its been a few weeks i'll just leave it at the last week. besides, really, before last week there was joe and melissa, and scott in the everpresent background. everything else just sort of fades into obscurity. this week was different though, a lot sharper. could be because it's only a few days away, but i'll leave that as a thought for ( Read more... )

well, i dont know what i needed before, but let me tell ya, some Effing Destruction in CS has certainly helped. first game a random guy and i took on three of the server clan members in a rats map and HOSED them. my score, 18-3. his score, 22-4... it was great. then i chatted for a bit, grabbed some milk at the store, came back for some 1v1 ( Read more... )

Merry christmas eve all. ya know, sometimes a week just doesnt go like it should. in fact, sometimes weeks should just go away, drift off into the abyss as time forgotten. *shrug* its all good. i dont know what it is, i just need Something. who knows, maybe its physical contact, maybe its caffiene, maybe i'm having withdrawls from getting my ( Read more... )

PT is.. interesting... wait, no, i lied, its hell. today we got IT'd in the rain. what that means for us is that we're all standing in formation in the coldest god damn weather imaginable for outdoor PT, getting rained on, dropping to our chests laying flat out on the asphalt with those sharp god damn rocks in it digging into our hands, in ( Read more... )

today has been nuts. we're talking the average can of nuts doesnt even come close to covering it, this day would take an entire nut shelling factory to adequately appreciate by comparison ( Read more... )