Is this what it feels like to be all out of fucks to give?

When I first got my job, I threw myself into it and worked every available hour that was offered to me.  I ended up with 62 hours each of my first two weeks, 44 my third, and on track for 54 this week.  That's not unusual since virtually every staff member on the payroll works at least that much, if not more.

This was a mistake because my body is ( Read more... )

Neither of us give up on our quarry easily.

This assignment at the gentleman's club continues to be a problem child.  I got a "field promotion" last week after my supervisor was hurt on the job, so the lot is my responsibility, for now.  We were the only permanent drivers there; otherwise there's a revolving door of 1-2 other valets poached from ( Read more... )

Today I got a refill of my Adderall prescription, marking 30 days since I started it.  The results have been impressive so far, though the med itself is just a piece of the puzzle.

Before I started this new course, I noted several times how my Strattera was becoming less and less effective, until last month when it seemed to stop working altogether ( Read more... )

The new job is getting easier as we work through the learning curve.  As mentioned in a previous post, I came in only two weeks after the nightclub opened, so we were all experimenting to see what works and what doesn't.  Little by little we're gaining ground and getting better at what we do.  This helps me deal better with the job, now that I can ( Read more... )

I'm not on any real schedule at work, on perpetual call for when/where they need me. Last night I asked for today off to recover from the last 7 days straight of 10-13 hour shifts.  It's a good thing I did, because getting up out of bed earlier sent shocks of pain up my legs I never knew were possible.  Going from 6 weeks of sofa spud to that level ( Read more... )

The good news:

I'm starting to dig my job, as much as I can under the circumstances.  I got 62 hours in my first full workweek, which will make a good start on getting out of this hole.  I'll likely be working exclusively at the new nightclub that opened earlier this month, 50 hours in a 4-day workweek, plus additional hours wherever they need me.   ( Read more... )

I found a job working for one of the valet subcontractors that staffs a variety of events and establishments.  I'll be bouncing around from one event to another on an as-needed basis.  I had an interview at 12:15 Thursday and by 1:30 I was working.  They threw me to the sharks, sink or swim, and I think I just ended up confusing the sharks long ( Read more... )

A few days ago, I posted a short video (one of several in a series) of Dr. Russell Barkley brilliantly outlining recent research (as of 2 years ago) on the neuro-biological sources of ADHD.

There was one particular part, though, that caught my attention, and I wanted to explore this.

"You (non-ADHD people) can self-regulate your motivation. The ( Read more... )

90% of the time, I'm not in the least bit hungry.  Sometimes I've had to force myself to eat because I know I have to.

( The other 10% of the time )