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one minute youre sitting there
the next youre out the door
leaving me in utter confusion
with my emotions running after you
but you running away from me

how could it be that you've run
why did our time have to end
how long have i told you i loved you
and how long have you said nothing back
why did you have to run

away from me and away ( Read more... )

its been a long time since i felt the rain upon my head. a moment in separation the foreground dont seem so bright these angels in my head are in between the shadow and the light. were my arms too short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue unstitch your eyes so you could read this forever. dead and broken and i'm backwards turned to ( Read more... )

why does it have to be like this?

what did i do?

where has it gone, did it fly away on the wind, did some dark creature capture it in the night. maybe it was you, the one that stole it away and hid it from our sight. now with this emptiness, the loneliness grows, until the dust collects on my heart. the shadows of what it used to be dance in the corner, slowly fading into the dark. as the ocean ( Read more... )

i so want to be a model when i get older. i dont mean to be narcissistic, but many people have suggested i should be a model. and i like it. my boyfriend takes pictures of me all the time and i cant help but like it. the same goes with acting, i love being on stage in front of millions of people, ok maybe like hundreds, but yeah. or maybe i just ( Read more... )

today, i went to Mt. St. Joseph's campus visit day thingy and it was so great. i love it there. i cant wait to go there. their art department is so awesome. i cant wait. the only thing i dont like, is that since it isnt a christian college, there are a lot of people to be wary of. its basically almost like a secular college, they just have a chapel ( Read more... )

oh i love acting. the play was so much fun. ever since i was a little girl i have always wanted to act. i love it. sometimes we would watch hello dolly and i would dress up in little skirts and prance around singing the songs and repeating dolly's part word for word. oh i loved it.

ugh! my head is pounding! it hurts to think or even blink!
i guess thats what play practice does to you

i'll be glad when its over, but also sad