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i don't know how to feel anymore.
about anything. everything.
i can never do anything right, i guess.

Yeah, that's what I get for opening my mouth. Everyone always tells me.. "Don't keep things bottled up inside; its not healthy. Say how you feel, and everything will feel better."

...So why does it work for everyone but me?
I knew I should have kept everything to myself like I had planned.
Looks like I fucked it up for myself.

( its always you in my big dreams. )

haha ummmm... i'm getting married after junior year, guys. :-P haha.
eeeew i hate fillings.I CANT FEEL MY FACE!! aaaahh.

there's too many things that i can't say in here anymore. i don't get it, though. this is my journal. Q: so why do i have to put all these restrictions on wording my entries? i'll answer myself. A: because of everyone else. more so, though, myself. i would love to write out what's going on and how i'm feeling lately. but i can't. too many people ( Read more... )

so today was extremely eventful. me and ashley came to my house, then waited for my mom to take us out so i could get those 2 new bikinis [<3!!] then we went back to ashleys and had like 3 seconds to get ready bc justin was already on his way and ashley hadnt even started getting ready yet. so me being the housewife-bitch heated up the chinese food ( Read more... )

( life planned out according to justin and me )

yeah so i was wicked tired all day because i was up til 3am talking to justin on the phone and eating easymac and watching movies that we both were watching on TBS.. small soldiers and osmosis jones. and then i was watching the music video for promise by matchbook romance and the girl's bed is wicked awesome and i love it and so i said out loud "i ( Read more... )

yeah so yesterday was a good day. i went shopping with ashley and her mom after i got out of work and got 2 new shirts and 2 new bras! yay. and then we went home and i dyed ashleys hair and it looks so amazing. ashleys mom called my mom while i was dying it and told her that i fell asleep and i got to sleep over lmfao it was awesome. and we went ( Read more... )

wow. <3