so i finally went to the doctor. i have (had?) asthmatic bronchitis. i hadn't been to a doctor or taking any medication to keep my asthma in check because i didn't know i still had medical insurance. so, now that i'm back on my meds i feel pretty good. still cough every now and again, but i can't expect that to just vanish ( Read more... )

so i've made the choice to at least semi-consistently update this thing. though i'm not sure if anyone reads it. if you do, please let me know. otherwise i'm just going to derreeetteee it.

anyway. i've been sick for like, 5 weeks. it sucks so bad. i've had a cough that just won't let up. i should go see a doctor but it's gotten to the point where i' ( Read more... )

I don't even know if anyone still reads this thing, but I figure there's still a handful of people who I haven't touched base with in a long time that still use this site. I'm wondering why I haven't deleted this thing yet. Eh. Well, here's the long and short of what's been going on since I posted anything actually not cryptic and worth the read ( Read more... )

Clinging to those who will have me.

having someone lock eyes with you, tell you that they were in love with you at one point but never said a word, and proceed to cry their eyes out on your shoulder is something that's never happened to me before ( Read more... )

After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.
After let down.

Seems like it's always gonna be one step forward and two steps back for me.

Guess I'd better stay put.

I'm going to let a lot of people down, and I'm sorry ( Read more... )

it's the only way my brain and heart will ever stop conflicting each other.

i always fault people for not saying what they mean, or what they want to say.

it's about time i pointed the finger at myself too.

i don't know who can save me from myself...
but if you're out there, for fuck's sake.
i need you.

- wheelchair basketball ( Read more... )

new year ( Read more... )