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The Heart Of The Matter
I should be reviewing/studying economics, but this song came on. Instead of swimming in the current world, I'm floating in my own mind. I've been thinking about my new home recently. Putting words into my head, repeating them, revising, and stepping back to look at the bigger picture. The routines are familiar, but everything is so different. ( Read more... ) -
I feel good :)
Today was definitely a long day. 19 hours of traveling. And I no longer live in New Hampshire. Weird. Wicked Weird. Tomorrow morning I move in to my new home for the next 9 months. I can't wait. 73 degrees year round. and the best part about it, is I can start over. regardless of if I got to say what I needed to or not, I'm here, I'm excited, and I ( Read more... ) -
Sisterhood
I repeated certain lines in my head to myself, and they burned there, forcing warm salt water to my eyes. I still have a knot in my throat. It's tying up my sadness, which is smothering my time ( Read more... ) -
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I went back and read random entries from the past four years. I keep trying to think straight, and just fail over and over. Even now I'm struggling to make sense of my thoughts. I can't handle this. I don't know what to do. There is so much to do. I'm just sad. All the time and it's finally starting to show. I know why, but I don't at the same time ( Read more... ) -
022006- "Loneliness"
Everyday I feel lonely at some point. Usually in my house or while watching a movie or play, or reading a story. Sometimes even just in a conversation. Loneliness relates to memories. Things remind me of what once was. Knowing it's now the same anymore gives an empty feeling. Even though I know it's okay and I know I'm not really alone, no one is ( Read more... ) -
old school blues
is this what you call closure? It all feels so far away. but the pain is so close to my heart. tears so near my eyes. One chain to take all my memories back. three words to push me on in life. My mind goes racing back to you. flooded with confusion to the moment where my heart was left on your bedroom floor and dragged to the seats down in the back ( Read more... ) -
where have all the cowboys gone?
I don't understand anything anymore ( Read more... ) -
yay food4less
Today was one long day. (esp since I pick up an extra three hours). Although I guess that is good, because I can rest my mind, which I def. need. After getting up at 5, almost missing my first flight because I read the schedule change wrong, it departed at 6:37am, not 6:57am like I thought. so I didn't have time to check baggage, which was no big ( Read more... ) -
firing work
i wish the gym was open right now. or that my dad hadn't just shocked the pool. I wish I had known I'd be home alone tonight. because here I am, celebrating the fake birthday of our country's independence, by calming my dog and cat down from the fireworks going off at the end of the road ( Read more... ) -
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no time for sleep beat beat can't eat smoke choke drink toke bed head from lust death is a must doubles take days money dictates allways. thoughts wander and one person stays.