i'm not feeling to loved right now. theres a variety of reasons for this. its kinda been the theme all day. although i bet if i hadnt felt it earlier i wouldnt feel like it now. at work today i was just getting this vibe that i wasnt wanted there. just the way people responded when i talked bothered me. Bob told me to work hard today so i tried. i ( Read more... )

Sadly this is really how i dance

hehehehe skipper...
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So church today was good. It made me think a lot about a lot of things. Todays sermon wsa about love. The sermon and Sunday school actually. I felt like a huge burden had been lifted off of me today. But a new one was placed down. I realized ive been expecting things in my relationships. I don’t just mean girlfriend relationship but it is included ( Read more... )

So yesterday was one of the best days i've had in a while. i haven't been that happy in at least a 2-3 weeks ( Read more... )

ironically enough throw in some go karts or some laser tag or something else like that and it would be my perfect date

so here i sit at work... bored out of my mind. all ive done today is tattle tape some magazines. a half hour job at best which i made last 2 hours. go me. i also picked up books for 15 minutes and read a magazine article about how boys are better at science. actually that part of thier brain devolpes like 8 years early than girls so girls get ( Read more... )

so im kinda disappointed right now for a couple of reasons. ehless than kinda more like slightly. the first being i had a lot of xtra time tonight (ill get to why later). extra time is a good thing. but i was really hoping id get to hang out with jenn who got called into work today. so i figured ok i can wait. so i left voicemails and she called ( Read more... )

so today was a good day. yes i know what i am saying and im proud to say it. multiple things happened today that were awesome. First off it was a beautiful day. The day of my dad's funeral was the same way. i went to church today and it was ok. it spoke to people i think so i was happy. so then we went down to indiana for jon's funeral. i got to ( Read more... )

i give up...

why do i feel so numb right now??? i was told about Jon and for about 10 minutes i was incredibly upset but now i jsut kinda feel nothing. i don't know... maybe i'm repressing i or something... maybe it's because my concern for other people is overpowering my own pain/hurt/grief or whatever you call it. But i can't even feel upset for them right ( Read more... )