I have a feeling i will be alone for a long time. By choice or by fate? I like to think its by choice. It just seems less pathetic. I just got done watching that new show, what about Brian. So many similarities to my life, except i am not in love with my best friends girl, just not my type. But my best friends girl does look a lot like the ( Read more... )

Of course i have this butterfly super motivated feeling in my stomach right now. Mae is going to record another album soon and they put some pics up of them and their rented house. Looks freaking fantastic. I cant wait until they have another album. Destination: Beautiful is my favorite cd in the world. Now if only i could find a girl here who ( Read more... )

Ok this last week, from sunday February 26th to March 5th had to be the worst week i have ever had. I will go in chronological order because, yes i am a geek. Ok sunday night, car was broken into, front passenger side window completely smashed. My school bag was stolen, which had my one of my books, my completed hw assignment and a weeks worth ( Read more... )

I swear my apathy is going to get me into serious trouble, that coupled with my depression. I am not a happy camper. Actually i hate camping. Good news though, my two midterms next week got pushed back a whole week so i can actually study for them even more, unless i wait until the last minute like always. Man my lifes boring... everyone i know ( Read more... )

Sitting here, listening to slow coming day. They are good, i always underestimate them. I should be working on my homework so i dont feel rushed to do it all on one night. Wishful thinking. I put some more pictures on my wall, i like it better already. I need to clean my room, its getting incredibly dirty. Piles of cd's everywhere and clothes ( Read more... )

Everything in my room seems better right now. Its amazing how happy rearranging my room makes me. It seems springy/summery, i love that feeling. 5 more months my dear and i will make everything better, at least i hope i can. School is being a pain in my neck, i never seem to get anything right or anything done since everytime i have something ( Read more... )

Wow, i just got done watching scrubs. Freakin the funniest show in the world. Hands down, no exceptions. I laugh like a maniac and at the end it always makes me feel good/depressed/happy/sad (its confusing i know) and i miss summer (like the best time of year in the world!!!) when i watch it. 5 more months, i count the days. you are always on ( Read more... )

Wow i am so brain dead right now. I did like only 4 hours of hw, but i hardly got anything done. Why is it always like this? I need some Caulfield right now, goodnight.

PS I wish i was going crazy, at least crazy people have someone to talk to when they are alone.

i talked with nicole tonight, my roommates gf. We talked about life and what not, and i told her about my inability to do my hw and get motivated about anything in life (well except somethings, JUNE!!!!!) But she suggested that i should take a drug to make me happier, well i guess thats ok for some people but i would rather not be dependent on a ( Read more... )

Ok i wearing my retainer for the first time in about a year. Still fits. I am also thinking of starting to exercise and sponsoring a child from the christian childrens fund. Is it me or am i trying to improve myself? Doesnt really sound like me, but maybe its time for a change ( Read more... )