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 Ouch

that hurts but how could  I really expect anything more?

I don't ask for much, you know I don't. You don't need to buy things or anything but, ouch

God that hurt my pride a lot

 this is scary

 I wish you were happy.
Every bit of you to be happy because I love you and if you are not happy, then I don't know why, but I don't feel happy 
and it is quite selfish of me to say this but I feel like a failure as a lover

it's just a thought and I wish that I could do something that makes a difference, that could perpetually make you laugh

I miss lisian and dhuha and Charlotte and all my other lj friends and I just missed all of you

I think lonlieness is something that creeps up when you see everyone else with someone else, when you see how happy or how unhappy or whatever it is that their feeling and to you, to me, it does not matter because at least their with someone, at least something is happening to them, at least they have this thing that means a great deal to them ( Read more... )

 i think things are tough when you want things, when you need to feel something, when you need to feel the value of something but matter of the fact is that nothing will happen and you will always be as you were years ago

and maybe you’ll learn to accept whatever is bothering you or maybe it’ll consume you six ways to sunday but whatever it is, ( Read more... )

 the more I think about it, the more I realize how badly I want something even though it is clearly established in every part of my brain that I do not need someone just for the sake of something ( Read more... )

  One of the many reasons why I liked you for so long was because you were a constant and I like things that are constant and I guess I’ve come to agree with the quote, ” the more things change, the more they stay the same”, I guess it makes a lot of difference ( Read more... )

 so far it's been all good:)