Search My heart Oh God and reveal my sins to me, test my motives and reveal to me all my transgressions and iquities help me to repent oh God so that i may walk in the way of righteousness towards the path of everlasting life. It was werid yesterday at CR i couldnt feel your preasence at all. Please help me to stop lying, stop manipulating, to stop ( Read more... )

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My life has been a whirlwind for so long i wonder if it will ever calm down. i long for peace to reside in my life again. I have been so uninspired to do any school work i know that has to stop and thati need to do a massive amount of work but i just feel so uninspired. I actually just feel tired and wish i could just rest a bit and relax. i long ( Read more... )

God you have been putting it on my heart to write about what i desire.....this is a very hard thing for me to do i mean really isn't that kind of selfish i mean aren't i supposed to be more concerned with what you want. oh i don't know..... I want an amazing marriage, one full of love, laughter, good communication..... one that pleases you of ( Read more... )

God i really don't know where to start, i feel like so much is going on in my life. I feel as though i have come such a long way but yet i still feel as though I'm nowhere. I feel like such a mess, before Rob came into my life i felt like i had everything together, now i feel as though I'm falling apart. I sort of wonder if my life has always been ( Read more... )

after talking to my friend lyn last night i decided i needed to have a certain conversation with rob. So this morning i did it, yes i actually started to communicate with rob. I discussed how and when he makes feel like he is being possessive and smothering. I could tell this made him upset. Ok that is an understatement. But i was very thankful God ( Read more... )

tonight was a very interesting experience, i ate dinner with my parents and my mom started yelling at me. I finally got to the bottom of this supposedly she is mad at me because she feels i have told everyone that she is sexually frustrated. which is not actually true. granted i told my dad but he already knew because he had mentioned it to me ( Read more... )

Last night I had the weirdest dream ever. I can't quite remember all of it. Rob and I were laying in bed together i was wearing this beautiful nightie and then we started to fight ( i can't remember what about though) then i started to cry or weep rather and pounding my fist on hist chest. He kept trying to console me by holding me and kissing me ( Read more... )

it has been so long since i wrote anything i'm actually astonished how long it's been. My ;life has been so crazy and hetic although thats always my excuse it seems for not keeping up to date with my journal. My PSY professor has told me the best thing i could do for myself is to write in my journal for at least 15 minutes before i go to bed at ( Read more... )

Thankfully annie's wedding went on with out a hitch, despite the fact that is kept pushing her luck and couldn't and wouldn't drop certain subjects. I feel so relieved that it is finally over and now i can reclaim my life as my own and focus on areas i had to put off and neglect in order to be a good friend and be the person my parents raised me to ( Read more... )