it's been a super long time ( Read more... )

I'm flying solo again. It's for the better and I'm okay. I got into another car accident and I don't know whats going to happen with it. School is trucking along, day before vacation tomorrow which should be cool cause im getting a cold so it will be nice to be able to sleep. I got into Fitchburg State College and I think that's where I'm gonna go ( Read more... )

it's been a while so i think i'll just update about everything starting with ( Read more... )

Grades were good. Can't figure out why my video won't send... i'm alittle upset by that but im starting to just get pissed. I'll have to call again. Been doing alot of nothing recently. Powderpuff was fucking sweet... marblehead can suck it, it's over but the 10 YEAR RECORD will live on. XC banquet made me really sad :( and i cried with my team. I' ( Read more... )

Today I visited my Nana. She was really upset and my dad gave her some advice. I was sitting there listening to him and it made me think. What he said is that you have to put things in the past, especially things that are trivial because life is short and who knows how long you'll be around and that letting things go just makes things easier/drama ( Read more... )

So recently I've been really stressed and at time really sad and at times really angry and at other times really indifferent. Right now I'm actually in a pretty good place and you know what it feels good.


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Everything is getting really confusing. College stuff dates are coming up wicked fast and I'm not ready yet. Sigh. I really want to be out in California cause I just need to get away from here but today my dad made a good point in saying that if I'm  not healthy then they would never want to send me out there ( Read more... )

    It's funny. Everyone puts up such a good front in school or around people. Everyone around me is as fucking miserable as I am and even if they have what they've been looking for it's not like that is entirely fufilling. But the games people play don't keep it interesting it makes it painful and sucky and I wish all my friends didn't play the ( Read more... )

I'm ready to curl up and just watch the world go by. It's starting to hurt too much.

Because no matter how much badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse- Meredith Grey

Vermont. I didn't finish running which sucked. But got to know some of the team which was cool. Overall can't tell if I enjoyed it all that much. Came home to the group being the way they've been recently. Not good. I miss something. I can't quite tell what it is though. Gosh. Un-conclusive entry. Sorry if you waste your time. I needed to get that