So much has happened but little has changed ( Read more... )

I want to start attending a meditation group. The idea of walking into a group of people I do not know and trying to meditate scares me. I am trying to decide between the two groups in Arcata--Arcata Zen Group and Swami Girijananda.

Dalai Lama talks about the Present
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHtbRd_H9EI

I realize now that when I made the transition from Jg to my husband, before he was my husband, I did so to cover up the pain. Jg climbed Mount Shasta. I started tunneling underground and hooked up with the first guy that was interested in me, that I had a rapport with. We were already together 6 weeks after the break-up with Jg ( Read more... )

The obstacles just fell away one by one. When before, no one could take my rabbits, in May, twenty were rehomed easily. When I needed a transporter to San Diego, she appeared. A few rabbits remained. One by one they began to die of an untreatable incurable disease. The obstacle of keeping rabbits was removed. Then, money. I walked into the ( Read more... )

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Tonight I am going to write about Doug ( Read more... )

It must be nice to get little tidbits of sweetness from me. To know exactly how much the tidal wave swirls and pulls me, without giving anything back ( Read more... )

It's really dumb for me to say, look, I had these psychic dreams. Look, I saw how you looked at me. I heard your voice, I heard the inflection. And then I want the confirmation. I want to be assured that I'm not just imagining everything ( Read more... )

I can't tell if I'm crazy. nothing that is not real can exist. I'm listening to too much Taylor Swift. At best she hits notes of Jewel. She's Jewel without a conscience. Brattiness is the new feminism. Flat sometimes when live. Going to make myself sick with the Taylor Swift. I should cultivate something. Read a course in love or miracles ( Read more... )