Overall Mood:  Sleepy / Lazy

Specific Behavior:  Went to Walmart to originally get a new football jersey.  They didn't have a Shockey one, so I went to the makeup department and bought the clean and clear acne kit.  Which means the stuff I bought at Pathmark the other day would need to be returned.  Bought some coke that was on sale.  Went to Billy' ( Read more... )

Overall Mood:   Panic / Anxious

Specific Behavior:   Spent most of the day watching television and just relaxing.  Filled out a lot of job applications online.  Best Buy called me up and scheduled me for an interview.  Next Saturday at 10AM with Valerie.  Started to panic about the drug test and if I would be clean by that time.

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Overall Mood:  Stressed / Anxious / Jittery

Specific Behavior:  Left on time to get to work this morning, which caused a beginning of a stress free day.  All that changed when I tried to handle a tech call about a P900 Printer that wasn't working with the terminal.  Steve was busy with Dave again, what a surprise.  Jack overheard the phone ( Read more... )

Overall Mood:  Anxious / Jittery / Hard to think / Unstable

Specific Behavior:  Left late to work, causing me to have a panic attack in the car as a sped almost 80 miles an hour the whole way there, praying to god a cop wouldn't pull me over.  Managed to do everything I was supposed to at my job, and my boss was in a decent mood today, so it was ( Read more... )

Overall Mood:  Busy/Anxious

Specific Behavior:  Kept myself extremely busy today occupying myself at work today.  Doing the tasks that needed to be done, but dread doing because of how tedious they are.  Did not ask once for something to do.  Kept myself busy because I didn't want to think of the events that unfolded yesterday with Billy and I.  ( Read more... )

Overall Mood:  Aggravated, Unstable.

Specific Behavior:  Not being able to give Bill the space he needed, and continued not to realize I was making the situation worse by sending him text messages, and telling him to choose right then and there if we should break up, or stay together giving him an ultimatum, which obviously made Billy jump on the ( Read more... )