172 days =]

okay. its been a long time since i've wrote.
i spent a lot of the beginning of this pregnancy
depressed and worried
because i felt like the whole world had its back to me.
but i've put everything in God's hands
and everything He touches is beautiful, so I have faith.
I've come to realize that even if this baby
does have mental difficulties or ( Read more... )

i'm pregnant.
i'm happy. giggly. 
and scared to death.

i have pku (remember the genetic disorders unit in biology?)
and i have a low-protein diet.
it was supposed to be a planned pregnancy.
so i could make my low-protein diet
even lower, so the baby would have a better chance of 
forming and developing normally.
it wasn't planned.
but never a mistake.
an ( Read more... )

i'm scared.
reallyreally scared.

please pray really hard for me.

 sigh.
i don't even know
where to begin.

 Puppy's going outside.

i had a test yesterday
in evangelism.
mucho hard.
i studied my heart out.
and when i got the test
there were 2 short answers and 4 essays.
i knew the 2 short answers
and 2 essays.
on the other two, 
since i hadn't the slightest clue
i said "i dont know but..."
and i began writing everything i had studied
and knew for certain.
gah
on one ( Read more... )

i suppose i'm in a better mood today.
which (i suppose) makes for a better journal entry.

the school load is just getting to me.
and work.
i just feel as if the most gentle wind
could make me crumble right now.
whereas mostly, i could get hit 
with a semi and walk away being like
"no, no..my fault!"
i think my mood perked last night
at pizza hut with daniel.
( Read more... )

 i'm not much in a journaling mood.
however, a quick update wouldn't hurt.
daniel and i are going on a mission trip
in january.
to guatemala.
sent off for my passport wednesday.

school's going good.
so far i've somehow managed to ace all my test 
except for that take home test 
i took to scott and stephanie's.
got an 80 on that, which is a C here.
so that ( Read more... )

Allow me to do this again
because i'm still getting a lot of congrats
thru family members
and this journal is the only possible way
i can think of that anyone would get 
that impression.

i am not pregnant.
we're not having a baby any time soon.
we're not trying to.
so on and so forth.

i'm not mad
just maybe a little sensitive 
about this subject
because i *am* ( Read more... )

 SURVEY SAYS:

1. Choose a band / artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs:

fall out boy..they have amazing song titles :)

2. Are you male or female:
Don't You Know Who I Think I Am?

3. Describe yourself:
Pretty in Punk

4. How do some people feel about you:
Champagne for my Real Friends, Pain for my Sham Friends ((hope i get champagne))

5. How do you ( Read more... )