hey yall! I've been having a mef - poor weekend. So i hope yours was better. Lets start at now and work backwards ( Read more... )

I changed my mind about the party, or rather undecided my mind, i dunno what i wanna do or if i wanna go... I think i'm just gonna have jo come over and hang with him. If he wants to go then we might. So ya, i'd sooo much rather just hang with jenn and jo and kurt at the spectrum. That'd be super cool. Even better than a wild party! Ya that ( Read more... )

yay! milk can was great! I had tons of fun. I got 68 hugs... total, i think.... maybe like 35... what ever! It was alot. I got to see so many people i don't usually talk to it was great. There were lots of girls, but only 4 were there that i was interested in.. sorta... i'm not over mindy, and i don't wanna start anything, I just wanna get to ( Read more... )

Well this is it. I had a bad day today. I cried myself to sleep. I want to call, but i dunno if it'd be "proper". I fell asleep at 4 and napped till 8. It was a long nap, and when i woke up i thought it was the morning, so i turned on the shower, but then fell back asleep. I don't know where to go. I dunno if i should try to move on, or ( Read more... )

ok so like me and Rinoa are back together... I'm happy. Being back in school has been good fun and all but the drama is heating up.... Predictions coming... oh yeah... Watch when Princess Frog loses the Anime club election to Ms. Vampy there'll be blood... I'll be rolling, but it won't be so great for everyone else i guess... but then again ( Read more... )

.... I'm scared... I dunno why.. ok i lied i do. I'm just afraid that since now rinoa and i are back together i'm scared that we won't be able to do it. We're just so weak. I take that back. I'm just so weak. Like how i've been around other girls and stuff, its just so fragile, our relationship, and i don't want to hurt her, but i also don't ( Read more... )

Well... it appears that the tides have changed. Rinoa wants to get back together... she wounded me badly. In some ways i don't think it will ever heal. I'm very reluctant to get back together. It will be hard to trust, hard to not be afraid that it will happen again, hard to heal, hard to feel in love again. I tried so hard after we broke up, ( Read more... )

I slept alright. I think i was tortured by memory in my dreams, but i cannot remember. I'm glad that i can't remember. I just want to bleed this out and get through it all. It still hurts and i don't know if i'm going to get better, but like vampy said, i will move on. She has really been helpful. Talking to her last night has made me feel ( Read more... )

even though i am wounded deeply i heal fast. I do not feel the bleeding, just the infection that follows. My heart will heal... but it cannot be the same. I'm not the same person anymore. I am less than i was before. I almost forgot who i was, but my music reminds me. It shapes who i am, how i feel. It is all i have left, all i am left, so ( Read more... )

Hallowed Be Thy Name - Iron Maiden ( Read more... )