Sometimes it's easier to remember the good times.  Sometimes all you can actually remember are the bad ones.  Either way our memories are precious and often fleeting.  Sometimes it feels like you are grasping at leaves as they blow and crumble in the wind, just trying to hold onto one little piece and finding that there is nothing left. 

Thursday I went to a Jehovah's Witness service in remembrance of the Last Supper.  I can tell you that the service did anything but bring me closer to God.  In fact it left me wondering what the heck these people believe in.  It seemed to be full of contradictions and yet you could tell the people had a strong belief and I have to admit that they ( Read more... )

I was on the bus today at work and overheard two people behind me talking.  The one lady has a 10 year old daughter who wants to be a taxidermist or a vet.  Then the other lady said she wanted to be a truck driver when she was ten and the lady with the daughter said she wanted to be a nun and teach math.  I'm not sure what either of these women do ( Read more... )

Spring is a time of renewal.  I time for taking stock of our lives, our homes, our relationships.  I just spoke to a good friend of mine today for the first time in a little over a month.  She got engaged last year and moved away.  She met her fiance a few months after I started dating Kevin.  Well he left her three weeks ago.  She deserves better ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt that you've been doing something for so long that you just don't know how to stop?  I've been keeping everyone out of my life for so long now that I'm not sure how to start letting them back in.  It all started when a good friend told me they didn't want to hear about my problems unless I did something about them.  The problem ( Read more... )

I'm not sure I know how to be single.  I had to break up with Kevin.  I've known that for awhile now, but it didn't make it any easier, nor does it make the thought of starting over again any easier. I think I'm finally over the crying, but I know I'm far from over the pain.  I keep wondering if I've somehow just missed my chance at love, if it was ( Read more... )

There has been a trend over the past couple months of people who have known me for years saying I don't seem like an affectionate person. Like I don't like hugs and don't care about people. Do I really come off this cold? I don't know why, but it bothers me to have people think I don't like to give or get hugs from my friends or that I wouldn't be ( Read more... )

 Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

Chorus

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First ( Read more... )

Today would be mom's 55th birthday, but instead of celibrating I'm remembering the times I didn't celibrate when I could have. So many missed opportunities to celibrate with her and others I've cared about. Today serves as a reminder that life is fleeting and can end at any moment. We need to enjoy the times we have together. We can't take anything ( Read more... )

So I've been off work for two months and accomplished nothing. And what is with friends feeling the need to constantly remind you of your mistakes? Dan did his last shift at MT last night so he won't be coming to Scranton as regularly so we won't really get to see each other and last night we were hanging out and he just kept feeling the need to ( Read more... )