My stress levels are maxed out. Tomorrow night I will meet my newest step mother..widow of my father. Im hoping that the evening will go smoothly without emotional turmoil. Im trying desperately to mentally prepare for this meeting. Add to that, I have two children who live in constant competition with one another. Both have been traumatically hurt ( Read more... )

Im feeling my stress levels ratchet up again. In the short time that J has been back, tension has been created. I listen to him bounce off of his brothers like before. Nothing has really changed. No counseling,no supervision these last several months with his father..and we're back to square one. He wants to be in control of everyone and everything ( Read more... )

My father is dead. Although to some that may seem a tragic event, for me it is a relief. I didnt lose a loving, doting parent. My abuser is finally gone. Ive spent years trying to escape the memories. Therapy, medication, journaling, drugs and alcohol..nothing made it go away for me. It took years to find some level of inner peace, some semblance ( Read more... )

Finally have my soldier boy home again..its nice to see him but i wish that the circumstances were better. It breaks my heart to see my kids hurt and i hate that i cant fix it for him. Its one of those wonderful processes that he must go through to get past. He has been told to tell his stories..likely so he gets it out of him..so its not eating ( Read more... )

Well, all previous attachments have been severed. My ex wife is taking it surprisingly well, my ex Domme, not so much. So far she's tried threatening suicide, manipulation, guilt...i guess i expected that. She's young, pregnant, hormonal..going thru a rough break up with the baby's father. I feel for her, truly, but she left and made it clear what ( Read more... )

well...its official..out there for all the world to see..W/we are a couple and W/we dont care who knows..broke it to my (now ex) Domme..she threatened suicide..kicked, screamed and manipulated..quite a potent threat considering the recent past..yet, im steadfast in my love and devotion to Rita..ive never felt so loved..so important to anyone..i ( Read more... )

So Wwe've moved to yet a new level. Last night She told me She is in love with me..and cried. i know its terrifying in its way; it is for me too. For Her, though, its such an extreme life change. Though Oour relationship seems to transcend gender or orientation, at least to Uus, it will be labelled by those outside Oour little circle. The average ( Read more... )

Seems like each day i find myself closer to the edge..the borders of a new life, a future..perhaps..therein lies the rub..the uncertainty is terrifying sometimes..the next year could be *all* there is to Uus..based on that alone, i find myself balking somewhat at the prospect of asking complete release from my Wolf..or of setting aside my ( Read more... )

I am at the end of my rope with this fucking job! Day after day I deal with bums, drunks, crackheads and whores...I don't have it in me to be tolerant or even compassionate anymore.. By the end of the day I'm so stressed and frustrated I don't know whether to cry or scream or just hit the next thing that moves ( Read more... )

Once again the trusty ol' ex has reappeared in my world....unbidden...unwelcome..just there...she stole painkillers from my Dad's pharmacy...He called me thinking he was pretty brilliant in having caught that....i would have been happier if he had an attack of intelligence BEFORE this happened...he's known the pill-addicted crack whore nearly 7 ( Read more... )