well its been awhile...things are going better.working like a nut, wich from some i've herd is unhealthy.i'm pleased to report that i'm working on not working so much and maybe sleeping and having alittle fun.taking life a day at a time and trying not to worry so much.so we shall see.but i feel better.

another night of work, you never think about it when you pick up and then it hits you...like a brick.like everything else latley yup...thats it.well i finally started to do what i've said i'd do for a long time, get some help...well i've been trying to for sometime but this time i think i might be onto something.something that might explain my mood ( Read more... )

it has been awhile since i have written, but for good reason i promise.i passed my class so now i am an official vampire, you know people get scared when your grinning while taking there blood?ummm...i am working on getting off the night shift because it is consuming my soul.i feel like i don't have much of a life i miss the sun and people and well ( Read more... )

today was alittle better than yesterday- i got things that i could notice done and well i felt better.my head is still swimmy but maybe i'll calm down.it can't rain all the time ya know.(sorry it's my favorite movie).i'm still planning on not drinking or smoking anything.drinking till my head calms down smoking forever (still upset at myself).just ( Read more... )

i am tired-i don't mean to wine because theres people that do a hell of alot more than me, but i am.not just physically but mentaly too.my head just wont stop thinking of the what ifs what might why????i can't seem to get it to stop.and well i can't get anything i want to done.no i haven't had a ton of coffie,i wish but no.i wanto just sit down and ( Read more... )

Well it's been a long cuple of weeks.I've learned two very important things-spend time with people while you can because you never know what will happen the next day and true love really does last forever even through some of the darkest times.tom i wish you a speedy recovery you are a superhero and gail i'm here you are a wonder woman.and jim i'm ( Read more... )

well i did wake up for robins birthday-(on my own surprize surprize).i had pleasent face at the dining room table, my little brother who i was very happy to see(for once i was happy to see him in the morning).for all who haven't herd me cry he left for college.i'm still in shock i guess.robins party was fun, lots of preasents and family.bliss you' ( Read more... )

happy birthday to robin,i can't beleave your one.goodness time does fly huh bliss.she's beautiful.hope i can make it to the party,if i don't be brave and ride some ponies for me kay ( Read more... )

well it's been awhile,sorry to all who couldn't get ahold of me.i've been spending some good alonetime with jim.it's been wonderful,i haven't stopped smiling quite honestly.just kinda getting to know eachother again and having some real time to try though i enjoy all the times we have.we went to dinner and he bought me a surprize book of the ( Read more... )

oh goodness i'm tired.long day.went to see bliss and robin and kefases yesterday.such a nice viset.robin loves pickles.soo...exited.went straite to work and had a very long night.but yes i love my job, still don't wanto be on nights though.then i went to sraite to class and well gave a speech.a little one but one none the less.thank goodness i was ( Read more... )