ok a haevnt written in a while but im here at home bored and broke so i might as well do this cuz its free! well crystal is on her way over here to visit me and so is joe. i have off again tomorrow but of course im stuck babysitting again. im so sick of it. i have not yet had a day off where i can relax and do what i want. ive gotta do shit ofr ( Read more... )

ok so its 3 in the morning and im supposed to be sleepiing cuz i have to get up and go look for a second job. i need a day job. i cant sleep all day anymore. its too much and it takes too much out of me. i want a normal life not a vampires. anyways i guess im stuck with being single again cuz i cant deal with the waiting for a guy that hurt me ( Read more... )

so i said to my ex last night that i want to marry him and he said that he wants to marry me too but the only thing stopping him from being with me is sleeping with another girl. now that doesnt bother me cuz ive been with other people but i feel that if he loves me why does it matter of he is with someone or not?! but he tells me that he wants to ( Read more... )

ok so now i feel a little bit better now cuz i smoked one but i have a lot on my mind. one hting is the same ol guy but the other is my friend. but from what she wrote in one of her journals im not so sure shes my friend. i think that shes going through a deep depression and hiding it. shes told me before that im the only true friend that shes had ( Read more... )

ok so today was one of my only days off and i had to spend it babysitting but thats ok cuz i had my cuzins and theyre cool to watch. so i took them to fort desoto park today and got burnt. that was fun then i went back to the beach to watch the sunset and that was fun too. but now im bored so im wirting in this journal. but of course im still not ( Read more... )

well i just got home and im tired but i wanted to write in this since i haventin a couple of days. well i jsut spent time with the man i love so much. i cant figure out what to do i love him and he says he loves me too but yet were not together. he says he just wants to know how it feels to be with other girls since ive been with other guys but i ( Read more... )