so it has been a grip since I posted n e thing, and I think it's time I do I have so much that has happened in the last year or so lol...lol... I guess the most important thing right now is whats on my mind now.. wow it crazy how it all started to be honest i am beginning to think I am addicted to him instead of in love with him like I think I am, ( Read more... )

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This year has come and almost gone so fast I swear all i did was blink and eye.... lol...lol... but I do have to say I have a lot to be thankful for I have a good job that I know I love just a lil upset with them right but it will pass.... I had my surgery so now I am all better and I am still healing which is also a good thing.... I moved to a ( Read more... )

man this time of year really sucks but athe same time it is my favorite time of year....i find myself crying almost every other day and I start it over the silliest shit a pic or a song I miss my kids so much i admit I get really depressed and want to hurt myself or others sometimes but I am a better person than that and I have to try to remember ( Read more... )

well I know it has been a while since I been here and I think it is time .. I really do have a lot to get out tjis time ... the problem is where to begin....I am at a poi nt in my life that I feel as if I am no longer needed or wanted any more... i was denied to see my kids i have no one to hold or love that will love me back... I have to move back ( Read more... )

i am at the piont in my life where I feel I am done... done with it all.. with life with love with being sick... even with work sometimes...I am tired of being happy for just a moment to have it slip right through my fingers.... over the last year I have been through my brother moving out, finding out I have a tumor or two, and they are not getting ( Read more... )

well I have been feelin' kinda fucked up... i miss my man I got my brother back but he really aint back and i am always alone so i guess it is whatever I guess I need to not trust anyone know that I am alone and realize I am the only one I can trust.... so my new saying is ... "Its' whatever"

we wonder where life is going to lead us and who it will bring us.... my life seems to go in circles... sometimes it is a good thing but it makes me wonder why is life doing a complete circle?.... I think I figured it out...lol..lol... I am a believer in everything happens for a reason and people come in and out of your life for a reason... ( Read more... )

I just have not been myself lately I don't sleep don't eat I don't feel much like laughing but I do it so no one really knows what is really goimng on.... I have been having moments where I just break down and cry for no reason.... the sad thing is I thinkj I am still struggleing to find me after I lost my kids I am not really me I feel lost empty ( Read more... )

well I had to take a 5 day medical leave because of my tooth being so infected and the meds I was on and I just got the denial letter so now I have to worry if I have a job i knew I had not been there for a year yet but my sup said I was still alotted 30 days of leave I guess he was wrong so what does that say about the knowledge of my sup maybe ( Read more... )