i miss being 19. i look at all these girls at work, still in school, happy and having fun. not that i'm old by any means, but i've changed, and i miss the ease of it all. i miss having to chalk id's to get into bars, i miss going to canada and feeling so drunk, yet so alive. I miss listening to britney spears and going to hockey games. i miss ( Read more... )

i don't know how to make things better ( Read more... )

So I've been home for about 2 weeks now... I think. Still working on finding a job and already getting tired of working at Michaels almost 40 hours a week. Not really much to say but I have a pretty icon picture from when Russ and I went to Old Forge in the Adirondacks on Friday. My birthday was last week and he bought me a digital camera, so we ( Read more... )

It's my last night in my apartment in Syracuse. I'm not celebrating or drinking ( Read more... )

I've decided to take a leave from school ( Read more... )

dear journal ( Read more... )

Of course I missed Buffalo, but it wasn't until today that it all really hit me. That there is no going back. That I don't have the people I had there to confide in and share these feelings with, people that understand what I'm going through ( Read more... )

So I've been home for officially like 3 days now... longer than that in reality, but I just finally moved all my stuff out of the apartment and turned in my key. It wasn't as sad as I thought it would be... leaving the apartment...I didn't cry the whole way home like I thought I might...Really I should be more sad. It WAS sad though, leaving all ( Read more... )

there is no easy way to say goodbye to Buffalo ( Read more... )

Well I've found two seconds to breathe and therefore I've decided ( Read more... )