I feel soo left out and I dont know why. Well I do know why, I think maybe Im a little in like with him and I dont like that when I leave to go do things they're always together. Even though I know that theyre just friends too. But still. The cute boy hadnt talked to me for a while but then a few days ago he started talking to me on aim again and ( Read more... )

tonite was anchor splash ( Read more... )

I feel like something is missing. Something important. & I dont know what it is. Sometimes I get kinda sad, because I feel like Im missing something. the problem is I dont think I ever had it, just lately Ive been needing it more then before.

I dont know if its bc Ive been busy, or if Im just upset bc of chris but Ive been feeling kinda low and depressed lately. hopefully it will go away. I feel like theres a ball of something Ive held back bouncing inside of me waiting for the wrong moment to explode. I still havent even cryed about chris, its just like facts this is what happened. I ( Read more... )

I wish that I could bring Chaos with me to school.
I wish that people didnt have to die, but I know its part of the cycle of life.
I wish that people wouldnt lie or kill either. But then if things in life werent so awful we wouldnt appreciate the small things would we?
I wish that one day I do get my happily ever after, and find my antonio.

<3

Im sick of ppl I love dying. I know that in a lot of ways Im lucky, that I have a big family or that we live in america and are lives arent threatened every day. But why do ppl that I love have to keep dying. When my aunt called and told me, I had to check my phone to make sure she had really called me and that I hadnt imagined it. And instead of ( Read more... )

Don't you love when you're having a bad day or just feeling gloomy and unloved like nothing will ever work out for you and then out of no where someone does something to cheer you up. Like an old boy iming I love you, or sending you a message that says hey beautiful how are you? It always cheers me up, even on my worst days. And lately they always ( Read more... )

my shoulders & neck hurt so bad that my head hurts. they started hurting last week when me & baylee started fighting. or more when she started acting like a bitch bc I wouldnt tell her "important" things. I still want to be friends with her, but I cant understand why someone would try to force me to tell them information about me. That makes me ( Read more... )

I went to game night last night. It was fun, the last one was too but I was soo worried about that paper that was due the next day that I hadnt finish writing that I didnt really enjoy it. I did last night though. The same cute guy from the previous one was there too :]. But like I didnt recognize him because he shaved his head & he seemed so much ( Read more... )

So I decided that if I want to write whatever I want I cant do it on my xanga page anymore because Baylee gets all pissy. So Im using my lj again, I havent used it in forever! Things have changed sooo much since the last time I wrote in here ( Read more... )